Lonely In The State Of Depression.
So I'm sittin here...and I'm just missing everyone. I am so alone feeling which is weird because I constantly have someone there...is it odd that I can be in a room crowded full of people and feel more alone than I have in all my life? I dunno...all I know is it really scares me because that is...well...my biggest fear...being alone, I mean. I feel really discontent at times...like nothing can please me...and it really frightens me because I'm afraid I'm slipping back into that depression stage and I hate it....I don't want to be depressed anymore. I want to be happy....I want the pain to just go away for a change.... ;.; My question is...do I put myself in these moods? Does the music, and the dark rooms and all depress me even more? It's one of those times when I simply need time to myself....and that just won't happen....woe is me...much is my misery....