Birthday
So today is my birthday. Yay me apparently. Last night some friends threw me a birthday party, there was supposed to be quite a few people coming, friends from school and such, but thanks to the TTC no one could make it. Then at the end of the night, all of my friends were staying over at the house it was at. I was not asked, they all just said they were tired and were going to bed so I left. Thanks by the way. So lets actually talk about my birthday. I woke up this morning to an empty house, no parents, no sister, no friends here to wish me a happy birthday. All I had was a cell phone with about 8 messages from facebook saying people had said happy birthday one after the other on my wall. So knowing how bored I was going to be today, being stuck at home alone, I texted a few of my friends. The responses were and I quote "I have to study, sorry", "I'm tired and have to work tomorrow", "I dont want to be out later than 8 cus i have to work tomorrow". K, thanks guys really thanks. Its not by birthday or anything, Its not like I'm asking you to jump through hoops of fire for me, just to keep me company, be a friend on my birthday. If your going to go out for lunch together on my birthday, and then tell me about it, the least you could do is ask me if I want to come. So here I am, bored, pretty upset at the way the day is going already, and pretty damn hungry. I do appreciate what everyone did for me last night, but it feels to me like everyone thinks its a write off that they did their part for me and thats it. I get to spend the next 3 hours by myself till dinner at 5:30. Than at about 6:30 I get to spend the rest of the night by myself because everyone is too busy or too selfish to bother. Its my birthday, and right now, it really sucks.
I do have to say now that the day is over that some people are really understanding. I had two of my friends come down and hang out in the end. It was nice to be with someone other than my mother today. I may have overreacted with all of this but I think anyone can understand that you have an expectation of your birthday. Mine was to hang out with my friends because thats when I'm having the most fun. But shit hit the fan, no one could/would and it really upset me because, it just ruinned what I wanted my day to be. It may be selfish but again, your birthday is supposed to be a day about you, and I felt that some of my best friends, although threw me a great party last night, really think that was enough because they weren't going to hang out today for whatever reasons. Whatever, its done, its over, and I have to stop thinking about it because it just puts me in a bad mood. But I do have to say thank you to everyone who helped me celebrate my birthday last night, and who wished me a happy birthday today because it really did help with how I was feeling.
I do have to say now that the day is over that some people are really understanding. I had two of my friends come down and hang out in the end. It was nice to be with someone other than my mother today. I may have overreacted with all of this but I think anyone can understand that you have an expectation of your birthday. Mine was to hang out with my friends because thats when I'm having the most fun. But shit hit the fan, no one could/would and it really upset me because, it just ruinned what I wanted my day to be. It may be selfish but again, your birthday is supposed to be a day about you, and I felt that some of my best friends, although threw me a great party last night, really think that was enough because they weren't going to hang out today for whatever reasons. Whatever, its done, its over, and I have to stop thinking about it because it just puts me in a bad mood. But I do have to say thank you to everyone who helped me celebrate my birthday last night, and who wished me a happy birthday today because it really did help with how I was feeling.