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after little or no contemplation, i realized that there is never an easy fix to my stressful problems. there isnt much i can do to change the fact that things altogether suck right now. even my tea sucks, which it shouldnt. its my favorite kind, but today it just isnt working out for me. maybe i used crappy honey, maybe i didnt let it seep long enough....
but i digress.
so that said, i guess i just have to deal with the work, the stress, the sleeping problems, the social interruptions, the CRAP.
dont get me wrong. im not all depressed or anything. today was actually a really good day. im just so tired. im physically tired, emotionally tired...all sorts of tired. i wish i could see the end of the tunnel, but i cant. right now, all i see is more long days and impossible projects. more days that i suck, more pieces to just throw away.
oh, and to add to the pile of things that is already making me feel stupid and pathetic, i want a boy.
man, i suck right now.
but i swear, im happy. i just need to vent or something.
when i wake up, my jaw hurts, because i clench my teeth in my sleep due to all the stress i have been experiencing.
squee....?
but i digress.
so that said, i guess i just have to deal with the work, the stress, the sleeping problems, the social interruptions, the CRAP.
dont get me wrong. im not all depressed or anything. today was actually a really good day. im just so tired. im physically tired, emotionally tired...all sorts of tired. i wish i could see the end of the tunnel, but i cant. right now, all i see is more long days and impossible projects. more days that i suck, more pieces to just throw away.
oh, and to add to the pile of things that is already making me feel stupid and pathetic, i want a boy.
man, i suck right now.
but i swear, im happy. i just need to vent or something.
when i wake up, my jaw hurts, because i clench my teeth in my sleep due to all the stress i have been experiencing.
squee....?