"Mm what you say"
Insomnia allows for time to think. I fear being alone. I don't just always surround myself with friends because it's fun to be with them...I just can't stand being alone with my thoughts. I become so negative with myself, and almost always wind up a little depressive. Fretting. Worrying. When I'm with friends I don't do that so much.
That's why I need a boyfriend so badly. Someone I can at least call when I'm alone and who'll be glad to hear from me. Maybe i romanticize it a little too much because I watch so much television, but I'd like to imagine that he'd be someone I could rely on for support and sex.
Oh yeah, sex. Maybe it's because I'm a teen, but sex in my mind is sort of like another school assignment hanging over my head. Not one that is too difficult to complete, and it is definitely fun and all that, but it still feels like something that is on my to do list, no pun intended.
I'm sick of never completing projects, so I've decided that starting tomorrow, despite the fact that it's 1AM and I'm still up, I will get up at 5:30 and go running and do other workout-ish activities. I figure that if I'm more in shape at least I'll have endorphins and a more slim and muscular body on my side. It's a step. If I can keep up with it. Not that I have a good track record with waking up early in the mornings.
That's why I need a boyfriend so badly. Someone I can at least call when I'm alone and who'll be glad to hear from me. Maybe i romanticize it a little too much because I watch so much television, but I'd like to imagine that he'd be someone I could rely on for support and sex.
Oh yeah, sex. Maybe it's because I'm a teen, but sex in my mind is sort of like another school assignment hanging over my head. Not one that is too difficult to complete, and it is definitely fun and all that, but it still feels like something that is on my to do list, no pun intended.
I'm sick of never completing projects, so I've decided that starting tomorrow, despite the fact that it's 1AM and I'm still up, I will get up at 5:30 and go running and do other workout-ish activities. I figure that if I'm more in shape at least I'll have endorphins and a more slim and muscular body on my side. It's a step. If I can keep up with it. Not that I have a good track record with waking up early in the mornings.