"Adam and Eve and the apple tore Eden apart"
My mom finally relented to allowing me to go to Interlochen on the condition that I clean my rooms, which I am currently procrastinating doing, especially since I just located some year-old sandwiches in containers in my closet. I don't even remember putting them there. It seems like an awfully odd thing for me to do. I'm afraid I'll puke if I look at them. I truly disgust myself sometimes.
I'm listening to Jekyll & Hyde for the first time since I heard that they were doing it at Interlochen last year and I was missing out. I located the CD at long last. Needless to say, I think I missed out on a killer show, especially since this year the rumor is that we're performing The Pajama Game, which is hardly a compelling show. Singing along to some of the music, I actually impressed myself with my singing. Sometimes I really think that I might just have a chance in the musical theatre world. Other times I horrify myself with the noises that come out of my mouth and awkward attempts at acting. In my own humble opinion, my rendition of The First Transition in my room growling at the walls was brilliant. Bwahaha. Maybe I'll be fortunate enough to do that show someday.
It's ridiculous how much weekends improve my mood. Jesus Christ Superstar just depresses me, I think. I don't understand how I can get into world famous performance programs and get reasonable roles, and then come back to my mere high school with much less talent, and get stuck in the chorus. I got cut from a song where I was slightly featured in order to be in a dance where I'm not very featured just because I *can* dance. Nicole has a magical way of making you feel worthless.
Passover has been a bust for me, I completely broke it yesterday even though it extends through tuesday. I feel slightly guilty because I pay so little attention to my religion throughout the year. This is partially because I don't believe in God in any traditional sense of the word. Yet, I see Judaism as part of my identity, and I feel that I have some sort of faith. But it is essentially a faith in myself and no sort of deity. Prayer, to me, is merely a source of inspiration and renewing desire rather than a means of achieving anything with outside help. Why I do remain involved in the Jewish community? That I can tell you in one word: Tradition! But seriously folks, it's just how I was raised and learned to identify myself. And I enjoy it. That's why I feel guilty for eating bread, not any sort of fear of being struck down by God. But bread is just too tasty.
Okay, this was probably the least inspired entry in a while. I'm just a compulsive procrastinator.
I'm listening to Jekyll & Hyde for the first time since I heard that they were doing it at Interlochen last year and I was missing out. I located the CD at long last. Needless to say, I think I missed out on a killer show, especially since this year the rumor is that we're performing The Pajama Game, which is hardly a compelling show. Singing along to some of the music, I actually impressed myself with my singing. Sometimes I really think that I might just have a chance in the musical theatre world. Other times I horrify myself with the noises that come out of my mouth and awkward attempts at acting. In my own humble opinion, my rendition of The First Transition in my room growling at the walls was brilliant. Bwahaha. Maybe I'll be fortunate enough to do that show someday.
It's ridiculous how much weekends improve my mood. Jesus Christ Superstar just depresses me, I think. I don't understand how I can get into world famous performance programs and get reasonable roles, and then come back to my mere high school with much less talent, and get stuck in the chorus. I got cut from a song where I was slightly featured in order to be in a dance where I'm not very featured just because I *can* dance. Nicole has a magical way of making you feel worthless.
Passover has been a bust for me, I completely broke it yesterday even though it extends through tuesday. I feel slightly guilty because I pay so little attention to my religion throughout the year. This is partially because I don't believe in God in any traditional sense of the word. Yet, I see Judaism as part of my identity, and I feel that I have some sort of faith. But it is essentially a faith in myself and no sort of deity. Prayer, to me, is merely a source of inspiration and renewing desire rather than a means of achieving anything with outside help. Why I do remain involved in the Jewish community? That I can tell you in one word: Tradition! But seriously folks, it's just how I was raised and learned to identify myself. And I enjoy it. That's why I feel guilty for eating bread, not any sort of fear of being struck down by God. But bread is just too tasty.
Okay, this was probably the least inspired entry in a while. I'm just a compulsive procrastinator.