Obscured by the lyrical dreams of a transparent glass house
So wow. My life mostly sucks right now.
All-state was one of the most amazing experiences I've ever had, singing with hundreds of other really talented singers I had no idea existed. And I met the most awesome guy ever, Sam, and we had a mini "thing" but he lives two hours from me which is inconvenient even though I'm in the market for a relationship right now. I hope it can go somewhere. Unfortunately, like all good things, all-state ended and I got dragged into the ridiculous stress of school.
Thursday we had auditions for Jesus Christ Superstar, but my voice was gone so Nicole told me I could audition friday before callbacks. Friday I came and she told me that she didn't care about hearing my song and I should just go to callbacks. Red flags went off in my head, but as always, I ignored them and went to callbacks and sang really well. I left thinking I definitely had a shot at a good role for once. So, of course, yesterday when I came into school and checked the list, I was chorus. I kind of had a breakdown.
Yesterday afternoon I went and asked the choir teacher whom I respect a lot what the hell it is I need to do to get cast. She fed me the line I've heard for the past eight shows at this school that my audition was fine but "they just didn't see me in any of the roles." At one point, that would have made sense to me, but after this many rejections, I'm wondering if there's any show out there where they could see me in a significant part. She also told me that she didn't think I really had a rock voice necessary for the show. I told her that my initial audition song had been a rock song that I had worked on a lot, and she was appalled that Nicole hadn't wanted to hear me sing it and blew me off like that. She then went on to tell me that I was a crucial chorus person because I can dance and sing so well, which, to me, was kind of insulting htough I know she didn't mean it to be.
I'm planning to talk to Nicole at the next opportunity and see if I can get the message through her thick skull that I know I deserve better roles, as do many of the people she often ignores in favor of the same small set of actors. Every single performer with any talent in BHS theatre has managed to get a lead in a show by the end of their sophomore years except me, because I'm not a suck-up. As for those she cast in the leading roles in this particular show, most of them are bound to suck beyond compare, I'm sorry to say. desafjhgckaweuysdceajsc I've never heard of a casting director with as abysmal taste as Nicole.
Four day weekend, please come soon.
All-state was one of the most amazing experiences I've ever had, singing with hundreds of other really talented singers I had no idea existed. And I met the most awesome guy ever, Sam, and we had a mini "thing" but he lives two hours from me which is inconvenient even though I'm in the market for a relationship right now. I hope it can go somewhere. Unfortunately, like all good things, all-state ended and I got dragged into the ridiculous stress of school.
Thursday we had auditions for Jesus Christ Superstar, but my voice was gone so Nicole told me I could audition friday before callbacks. Friday I came and she told me that she didn't care about hearing my song and I should just go to callbacks. Red flags went off in my head, but as always, I ignored them and went to callbacks and sang really well. I left thinking I definitely had a shot at a good role for once. So, of course, yesterday when I came into school and checked the list, I was chorus. I kind of had a breakdown.
Yesterday afternoon I went and asked the choir teacher whom I respect a lot what the hell it is I need to do to get cast. She fed me the line I've heard for the past eight shows at this school that my audition was fine but "they just didn't see me in any of the roles." At one point, that would have made sense to me, but after this many rejections, I'm wondering if there's any show out there where they could see me in a significant part. She also told me that she didn't think I really had a rock voice necessary for the show. I told her that my initial audition song had been a rock song that I had worked on a lot, and she was appalled that Nicole hadn't wanted to hear me sing it and blew me off like that. She then went on to tell me that I was a crucial chorus person because I can dance and sing so well, which, to me, was kind of insulting htough I know she didn't mean it to be.
I'm planning to talk to Nicole at the next opportunity and see if I can get the message through her thick skull that I know I deserve better roles, as do many of the people she often ignores in favor of the same small set of actors. Every single performer with any talent in BHS theatre has managed to get a lead in a show by the end of their sophomore years except me, because I'm not a suck-up. As for those she cast in the leading roles in this particular show, most of them are bound to suck beyond compare, I'm sorry to say. desafjhgckaweuysdceajsc I've never heard of a casting director with as abysmal taste as Nicole.
Four day weekend, please come soon.