2 weeks....
time's flying... and i don't know what to say anymore.
last week was the end of training and tomorrow will be my first day on my own at the call center. nervous...! especially because last week was a bit rough after a customer threatened crap against PB and wanted to drag me down with her. >_>;; hopefully nothing like that ever happens again...
tomorrow might be the day i tell HR that i'll be leaving... but i'm not sure. i want to be done with this job asap so that i can have more than just a couple of days before leaving to actually focus on the fact that i'm about to move back to Japan. at the same time, i can't really afford to stop working there any sooner than i absolutely have to... what to do? gotta decide my priorities, i guess...
work aside, things have been rough at home... as always. my sister was in the hospital the past week after having had surgery on her toe.... again. long story. it's made mom very stressed out and thus i've also been stressed out. almost every night at least one of us spent the night in the hospital and then got up and went to work after that on little sleep. :/ thankfully she's out now, but now she's staying here at mom's house as she still can't manage everything on her own and THAT is a whole new type of stress. ugh.
as much as i love my family, i can't wait to get away from here. i can't wait to not have to stress out over money like i've had to for so long now... i'm utterly exhausted in more ways than one.
edit: ...looks like my job decision has been made all the harder now. i read the associate handbook (which i know i should have done before now) and it says that PB requests 2 weeks notice of resignation (which would be by tomorrow) but also that they reserve the right to terminate my employment immediately or at any time after that.... and as a seasonal employee just out of training, i imagine they would terminate me immediate. :/ so now what do i do? if i do the honest thing and give 2 weeks notice i may be down 2 weeks worth of pay that i DESPERATELY need. at this point, i don't even have enough money to live off of for the first month in Japan let alone enough to keep paying my bills back in the US as well...
... i don't know what to do, but i have to make up my mind by first thing tomorrow. ugh...
last week was the end of training and tomorrow will be my first day on my own at the call center. nervous...! especially because last week was a bit rough after a customer threatened crap against PB and wanted to drag me down with her. >_>;; hopefully nothing like that ever happens again...
tomorrow might be the day i tell HR that i'll be leaving... but i'm not sure. i want to be done with this job asap so that i can have more than just a couple of days before leaving to actually focus on the fact that i'm about to move back to Japan. at the same time, i can't really afford to stop working there any sooner than i absolutely have to... what to do? gotta decide my priorities, i guess...
work aside, things have been rough at home... as always. my sister was in the hospital the past week after having had surgery on her toe.... again. long story. it's made mom very stressed out and thus i've also been stressed out. almost every night at least one of us spent the night in the hospital and then got up and went to work after that on little sleep. :/ thankfully she's out now, but now she's staying here at mom's house as she still can't manage everything on her own and THAT is a whole new type of stress. ugh.
as much as i love my family, i can't wait to get away from here. i can't wait to not have to stress out over money like i've had to for so long now... i'm utterly exhausted in more ways than one.
edit: ...looks like my job decision has been made all the harder now. i read the associate handbook (which i know i should have done before now) and it says that PB requests 2 weeks notice of resignation (which would be by tomorrow) but also that they reserve the right to terminate my employment immediately or at any time after that.... and as a seasonal employee just out of training, i imagine they would terminate me immediate. :/ so now what do i do? if i do the honest thing and give 2 weeks notice i may be down 2 weeks worth of pay that i DESPERATELY need. at this point, i don't even have enough money to live off of for the first month in Japan let alone enough to keep paying my bills back in the US as well...
... i don't know what to do, but i have to make up my mind by first thing tomorrow. ugh...