............ *sigh*
here i am with a cat that i love to death already after having gone through 2 years of depression, anger and loneliness (among other things) without one and i am faced with having to give her away.
today was all over the place once i got home from work; perhaps i know the reason (or atleast part of) why she was deserted and i still find it just as appalling, of course. every moment i spend with this cat is a bonding experience. even what happened today just makes me want to keep her for myself all the more.
if i have to part with her (whether now or later), it will hurt more than it did deciding to take her. *sigh*
last night went well all around. she slept lots, was lovey whenever she wasn`t sleeping and followed me around everywhere. when i finally went to bed, she slept with me on the futon. the few times i woke up she was either still sleeping beside me or coming back from the litter box and when i woke up for good everything was still as i had left it the night before and she was still there beside me. nothing was array... which kinda blows my mind since she is still a kitten.
we had such an awesomely uneventful first night that i felt little reason to leave her in the bathroom while i went to work today. today is my halfday, meaning i`m off work whenever my last class at ES ends which is usually around 12:30. it is inevitable that she be left alone for hours during the day, so i felt that today was a great day to start. being my halfday meant that she atleast wouldn`t be alone for an entire 8+hrs and that IF she was going to get into stuff she shouldn`t, atleast she`d have less time to do so on the first day. so, i left her laying on my futon (no, i didn`t put it up because i have no where to put it and she loves sleeping on it so how could i take it away?).
after work i quickly went by 2 stores near the school that i was at to get more canned food and a proper litter box before hurrying home. when i got home all of my things were in order but my floor was a horrible mess and she was no where to be seen.
she had vomited all over the apartment, literally from the front door to the farthest wall. she had also not made it to the litter box a couple times as well... carefully making my way through the stuff on my floor, i searched for her, calling but getting no answer. finally i found her as i had found her yesterday, drawn up into a tight ball but this time she looked probably as bad as she felt. she wouldn`t even come out of the corner when i tried to coax her... i wonder if she was afraid of what i might do having seen all that she had done...
i decided to leave her there for a bit while i frantically cleaned as even the bathroom was out of commission. once i got the bathroom decent enough, i put her in there while i frantically looked up vets. i really couln`t afford to take her, but i had to. sadly, the majority of vets are closed on wednesdays... go figure. finally i found one that was open all the way across town. i asked for an appointment today and was lucky enough to get one. i told the receptionist that i was pretty much broke and was told i could discuss the matter of money there since there was no way for her to really guesstimate costs. overjoyed but stressed, i ran out the door to collect all that i could from 2 bank accounts. would it be enough...?? i also bought disinfectant cleaner and lots of paper towels. the apartment still being a mess but having no time, i cleaned her up as much as she`d let me before calling a taxi.
again in the box with the blanket that she doesnt seem to mind at all, we made it to the tiny vet office and were immediately escorted into the sole exam room. the vet`s first comments when taking the little tiger out of the box were in regards to her surprising lack of weight and thinness. when money was mentioned, i was told what i had would be plenty and that i needn`t get everything done in one visit anyway. <3
poor little tiger went through a lot on the metal exam room table. thermometer up her ass (she is indeed female btw), IV stuck in her, a shot to her thigh, smelly flea stuff on her back-- poor girl... she was considerably good about it, though. the verdict was that she was indeed underweight, VERY dehydrated, her body temp was lower than it should be and she was suffering a lot, poor girl. the food that i had given her and that she had so eagerly eaten last night didn`t help her condition at all...
in the end, she was prescribed 3 medications + special food and i have another appointment for her on saturday, to follow up on her condition and hopefully to test for a virus that is apparently common among strays in Kochi. when we returned home i put her back in the bathroom with what now seems to be her comfort towel and rushedly cleaned the apartment before cleaning her and letting her roam free.
she is now curled up on my futon infront of a space heater being as awesome as she naturally seems to be.
i put up a plea for someone to take her in through Kochi AJET (mailing list for Kochi JETs) last night and have received 2 emails thus far. i haven`t heard back from the first inquirer yet, but i`ve been emailing back and forth with the 2nd while typing this and it seems like little tiger could possibly go to a good home...
....now if only i weren`t so torn about it. i need to think of what`s best for her, not me. it`s probably best for her that she be in a place that doesnt have rules against her... but gah... :`[ i love her and would like to keep her, as selfish as that may be...
someone somewhere really likes playing with my heart.
what to do...
photos from last night:
http://nighstar.net/photos/damnyoujapan2.JPG
http://nighstar.net/photos/damnyoujapan3.JPG
edit: +1 from tonight: http://nighstar.net/photos/damnyoujapan4.JPG
today was all over the place once i got home from work; perhaps i know the reason (or atleast part of) why she was deserted and i still find it just as appalling, of course. every moment i spend with this cat is a bonding experience. even what happened today just makes me want to keep her for myself all the more.
if i have to part with her (whether now or later), it will hurt more than it did deciding to take her. *sigh*
last night went well all around. she slept lots, was lovey whenever she wasn`t sleeping and followed me around everywhere. when i finally went to bed, she slept with me on the futon. the few times i woke up she was either still sleeping beside me or coming back from the litter box and when i woke up for good everything was still as i had left it the night before and she was still there beside me. nothing was array... which kinda blows my mind since she is still a kitten.
we had such an awesomely uneventful first night that i felt little reason to leave her in the bathroom while i went to work today. today is my halfday, meaning i`m off work whenever my last class at ES ends which is usually around 12:30. it is inevitable that she be left alone for hours during the day, so i felt that today was a great day to start. being my halfday meant that she atleast wouldn`t be alone for an entire 8+hrs and that IF she was going to get into stuff she shouldn`t, atleast she`d have less time to do so on the first day. so, i left her laying on my futon (no, i didn`t put it up because i have no where to put it and she loves sleeping on it so how could i take it away?).
after work i quickly went by 2 stores near the school that i was at to get more canned food and a proper litter box before hurrying home. when i got home all of my things were in order but my floor was a horrible mess and she was no where to be seen.
she had vomited all over the apartment, literally from the front door to the farthest wall. she had also not made it to the litter box a couple times as well... carefully making my way through the stuff on my floor, i searched for her, calling but getting no answer. finally i found her as i had found her yesterday, drawn up into a tight ball but this time she looked probably as bad as she felt. she wouldn`t even come out of the corner when i tried to coax her... i wonder if she was afraid of what i might do having seen all that she had done...
i decided to leave her there for a bit while i frantically cleaned as even the bathroom was out of commission. once i got the bathroom decent enough, i put her in there while i frantically looked up vets. i really couln`t afford to take her, but i had to. sadly, the majority of vets are closed on wednesdays... go figure. finally i found one that was open all the way across town. i asked for an appointment today and was lucky enough to get one. i told the receptionist that i was pretty much broke and was told i could discuss the matter of money there since there was no way for her to really guesstimate costs. overjoyed but stressed, i ran out the door to collect all that i could from 2 bank accounts. would it be enough...?? i also bought disinfectant cleaner and lots of paper towels. the apartment still being a mess but having no time, i cleaned her up as much as she`d let me before calling a taxi.
again in the box with the blanket that she doesnt seem to mind at all, we made it to the tiny vet office and were immediately escorted into the sole exam room. the vet`s first comments when taking the little tiger out of the box were in regards to her surprising lack of weight and thinness. when money was mentioned, i was told what i had would be plenty and that i needn`t get everything done in one visit anyway. <3
poor little tiger went through a lot on the metal exam room table. thermometer up her ass (she is indeed female btw), IV stuck in her, a shot to her thigh, smelly flea stuff on her back-- poor girl... she was considerably good about it, though. the verdict was that she was indeed underweight, VERY dehydrated, her body temp was lower than it should be and she was suffering a lot, poor girl. the food that i had given her and that she had so eagerly eaten last night didn`t help her condition at all...
in the end, she was prescribed 3 medications + special food and i have another appointment for her on saturday, to follow up on her condition and hopefully to test for a virus that is apparently common among strays in Kochi. when we returned home i put her back in the bathroom with what now seems to be her comfort towel and rushedly cleaned the apartment before cleaning her and letting her roam free.
she is now curled up on my futon infront of a space heater being as awesome as she naturally seems to be.
i put up a plea for someone to take her in through Kochi AJET (mailing list for Kochi JETs) last night and have received 2 emails thus far. i haven`t heard back from the first inquirer yet, but i`ve been emailing back and forth with the 2nd while typing this and it seems like little tiger could possibly go to a good home...
....now if only i weren`t so torn about it. i need to think of what`s best for her, not me. it`s probably best for her that she be in a place that doesnt have rules against her... but gah... :`[ i love her and would like to keep her, as selfish as that may be...
someone somewhere really likes playing with my heart.
what to do...
photos from last night:
http://nighstar.net/photos/damnyoujapan2.JPG
http://nighstar.net/photos/damnyoujapan3.JPG
edit: +1 from tonight: http://nighstar.net/photos/damnyoujapan4.JPG
