Introspective shit that i should never think about
im fuked up for thode of you who didnt know and right now im really confused (like thats new) ive been thinkin about life and decided that i have no reason for doing the things that i do. Its stupid. I have depression its fuked up u guys really have noooo idea. Why do i do this to myself every night? Fuk things in general ubt you all are really good to me and put up with all of my shit (wich is alot) for those of you reading this you are my dearest and best friends really i mean that. Dont ever turn out like me you WILL regret it i do. Wow that was supridingly easy to say but now i dont know what to do. My lifes been like this ever since ive been sober (yes ive almost completely stopped doing shit its not that amazing) ive been feeling like this all the time. I just dont know what to do my family sux my mom hates me and thinks im a failure my dad really dosent care and my sister, well you all know the stories. I genrally hate things around me right now except for you. My job sux like you wouldnt belive (u really have no idea)ryan take a word of advice however desprate you are dont work at fast food get a job in retail or whatever thats not fast food. IT SUX ASS. This is coming out really easy its amazing ive been really open with people today wow i kinda feel alittle bit better but whatever the medicine really helps.Damn