i hate life

[niff_i_ness]

hey hey it's meh again. I'm here as usual to update. I know I didn't really finish my update yesterday but that's alrite I really don't care...I don't need every body in my shit. But it's like this...tonite hasta be like the worse day/night I've ever had. This morning I read something I didn't wanna read...I tripped...Then I wrote a letter I didn't mean...then I ended up stayin over at work...3hrs later that's always fun. Then while I was at work my mom called me and asked me to bring boxes home...b/c her 'n will got into it & he wants a divorce...whoopi...and now it's all gunna go back to the way it was b4...My mom's gunna forgive him they're not gunna get divorced and I'm not gunna be happy. anywayz movin on...Back to the fact that when I got the call now I was runnin the store I was the only manager there...pretty much the other one was on break...anyway. I hadta go in the office & take the call. Listened to what my mom said and it's all b/s to get a divorce over in the first place. But like same shit as always...I came home...we went to grans...came back home...guess what Will's gone...so anyone who knows...knows what Will is like...well he left right & We was goin to Wal*mart and we went lookin for him...didn't find him...nice huh? Well we came home from wal*mart and he still wasn't back...so my mom called the bars looking for him & she found out that he was at the one & had left and he went to the other one and by the time she called there...he left and headed back to the other one. Well my dad took her to find him & by the time she got back he was home. BIG TROUBLE...'cause he's been drinking...and he's an alcoholic...=( so ya u know what that means. He came home drunk and like I knew it...I knew when he left that he was gunna get trashed...& I was right...now he's home & my mom is arguin with him. He keeps talkin about me, now u ppl kno how ppl get when they're drunk...they get loud! Ok and he was bein loud talkin about me...and actin like I don't hear him...and that pissed me off but I had ppl tellin me don't let him get to me and all that shit well I let it go...and I turned my music on so I couldn't hear them but I happened to walk in there so I could get my cds and they stopped me to talk to them...Well I didn't even fully answer the one question because he pissed me off...I told him to forget it & left the room. But they continued to aruge and I could hear them still....and it made me sick to my stomach 'cause I knew they was talkin about me and heres the sad part...It can't even be partially my fault today because I wasn't here most of the day because as I previously said I worked 11hrs. So guess what I couldn't of possibly done ne thing to piss ne one off. Well he told my mom that he didn't like the fact that I didn't talk to him & everything was ok until my dad moved in & that's not true. I told him and I kno this was ignorant but I was like "that's right I got my dad, I don't and won't ever need u" All the arguin they did made me sick like literally I have a head ache & my chest was hurtin & my stomach i thought I was gunna be sick. But eventually it all simmered down to "Nikki hates me" and blah blah...and now like everything is calmed down but he smells so bad like beer it's wicked...& he's wrong I don't hate him I really don't hate ne one but he's very close to hate. Well I think I'm out..I need to goto bed.
~*~Gabe- Thank u sooooo much for listening to my dumbass tonite even when I was talkin crazee...Thank u honestly for bein here for me all the time I love ya ~*~
God Bless
~*~LG~*~