(no subject)
Cancer.
noun
1 : a malignant tumor of potentially unlimited growth that expands locally by invasion and systemically by metastasis
It's a dangerous word, and an even dangerous predicament. It makes you sad, confused.. And angry. Why you?? Why someone you love?
Ttomorrow at 10:45, my cat's being put to sleep because she has mouth cancer. And not to mention, the doctors believe my mother's cancer's back for round two. Blinky's been in my life since 1999. And I found her so, she's not exactly a kitten. She has to be at least 10 years old.. She's my baby.. She's been there for me through all the years my parents haven't. Silent comfort, taken by a silent killer.. I hate this, the way things come and bite you on the ass. If only I said something when I first found it, if only I caught on quicker. So yeah, it feels kinda like it's my fault 'cause I neglected to say anything three months ago about it.. But she seemed fine at the time and ate perfectly.
We had three choices, before I chose what was better for my baby.. We could've had the vet operate on it, and remove that side of her face.. But she'd also have to be away from the other two cats and be on a very strict, very expensive cancer diet.. Or we could just leave her alone and let her stay here, until she stops eating, then put her to sleep. And the third, also the one I picked, we could put her down now.. So she didn't have to go through all the suffering. All the pain it could be.
So 7/11/07, will be the last day I'll get to be with my Blinky. At least I'll be in the room when they give her the shot so she's not dying alone.. And she's not scared.
noun
1 : a malignant tumor of potentially unlimited growth that expands locally by invasion and systemically by metastasis
It's a dangerous word, and an even dangerous predicament. It makes you sad, confused.. And angry. Why you?? Why someone you love?
Ttomorrow at 10:45, my cat's being put to sleep because she has mouth cancer. And not to mention, the doctors believe my mother's cancer's back for round two. Blinky's been in my life since 1999. And I found her so, she's not exactly a kitten. She has to be at least 10 years old.. She's my baby.. She's been there for me through all the years my parents haven't. Silent comfort, taken by a silent killer.. I hate this, the way things come and bite you on the ass. If only I said something when I first found it, if only I caught on quicker. So yeah, it feels kinda like it's my fault 'cause I neglected to say anything three months ago about it.. But she seemed fine at the time and ate perfectly.
We had three choices, before I chose what was better for my baby.. We could've had the vet operate on it, and remove that side of her face.. But she'd also have to be away from the other two cats and be on a very strict, very expensive cancer diet.. Or we could just leave her alone and let her stay here, until she stops eating, then put her to sleep. And the third, also the one I picked, we could put her down now.. So she didn't have to go through all the suffering. All the pain it could be.
So 7/11/07, will be the last day I'll get to be with my Blinky. At least I'll be in the room when they give her the shot so she's not dying alone.. And she's not scared.