i got the hint...
i couldnt believe how much i actually miss my work...sigh....i wish i couldnt quit in first place....but autumn was driving me nut... so i had to quit.... and now finally i got the clues that she doesnt want to do anything with me at all from what i can tell that im a hot looking guy that she just look at me as just a other friend when i chased her like a stray dog....but thats life...men do things stupid for whatever they want...adios amigo