Feb 14, 2007 08:17
My mum decided that she would like me and my sister to move back into her house in Caledonia. She's afraid that we'll struggle for years paying off all our college debt--I have at least 45k, about to get more in grad school, and Kymberly's is accumulating rapidly. We would live there and go to work somewhere in GR, and that would allow most of our income to go to pay off our loans quickly. We'd have a free place to live; no rent/bills to pay, we could help out with buying groceries but we'd basically live in her basement, which is unfinished right now. She would fix it up, make a second bedroom, and we could make the living area our own little "apartment" down there.
I'm really torn at this point; on the one hand, it's an offer of mostly free room/board which is great at this point in my life when I'm in between jobs (*still* haven't found a new one, but that's a whole other rant). However, on the other hand, I'd be moving back in with my mother, who I love, but I've been out of my mother's house since I was 17. Five years later, I move back in? Not only is it a serious setback in what I see as my independence, but I used to make fun of Kevin (sorta kinda) for living at home throughout college and even now when he's got a full-time, great paying job. I'm afraid that 1. If I move back in, I'll never leave Caledonia again...I'll find something there like a mediocre job, and just settle for a mediocre life. Not that everyone in Caledonia has a mediocre life, it's just that I've been away for 5 years and going back feels almost like defeat. 2. I might not finish (hell, even start) grad school...I was accepted to Wayne State and most of the classes I need are online and the rest are in Lansing 1 night a week, so if I moved home, I could definitely commute...but would I?
Not to mention I'd have to get out of my apartment lease (which sounds like hell to try), I'd have to move AGAIN after I helped her fix up the basement, and then I'd have to look for a job in GR. Not that there are any jobs in Lansing, but I doubt there are many more in GR to take either. I just don't want to end up back at Meijer with my college degree...I want to do something with it, hell, I paid for it.
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