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so theres alot goin on right now and some i don't feel like sharing on here....but yesterday i kinda got into a fit on the bus with sosa...it all started out as joking arround and thtas all fine that didn't bother me and smacking me in the ass and kevin grabbing my leg so sosa could smack me in the leg didn't bother me throwing the paper at first didn't bother me but when i said stop i meant stop and he didn't stop..then i got somthing thrown at me that had spit in it and i think moses did that but im not 100% sure...so monet handed him an apple and said here throw this at her(not 100% sure she said that but that swhat someone said) which bothers me a little bit but we were all still joking around so w/e...but i said stop and i was starting ot get pissed off and he still didn't stop..so i got up when pieces of apple out of his mouth statrted hitting me..and i started hitting him like seriously hitting him and i think sam tried to pull em off but i didn't stop...so then i sat down and he kept going so i got up again and started hitting him...he kicked me in the chest..i kept going...the bus driver pulled over and i had to go up front. i told the bus driver that i didn't start it he did..but he said he was gonna have to write me up...i said ok..so i got off hte bus and decided to wait for chantil to get off hte bus so i could go home..petra(i think)yelled out the bus to let him have it or somthin like that...i yelled at him for getting me written up and started cussing at him and i pushed him alil bit and i walked away...he kept talkin he kept saying Danielle why r u walking so fast?Danielle don't you still love me??Danielle Danielle and i started yelling for him to leave me the fukc alone and if he ever came anywhere near me again i was gonna kick his ass and then have my brother do it when he came down...he kept talkin shit so i dropped me bag and i said do you wanna start shit? and i walked up to him and weee started yelling at echother and i htink i pushed him and he grabbed me by the wrists and started pushing me...and twisting my wirsts and he kept saying oh i htought you were gonna kick my ass huh? i said ok sossa ok let me go...sosa let me go please....i was seriously im not kidding you i was scaredthat he was seriously gonna hurt me..i know how he gets when hes mad and i was scared... so i walked away then EVERYone came up chantil told me to come back os we could all tlak so i came back and i was like fuck this and i started walking away then moses,sosa,kevin,petra,jade,cj,everyone who sits in the back pretty much and even justin comes up and moses runs up to me and tells me to coem back for some apologies and w/e i was like fom who?and he said from sosa..dso i was like fine so i walked back over there and i was like ok why am i here?so sosa and i kept arguing moese was trying to help and i appreicate that but on the bus he was part of the problem so when he tried to shake my hand i jsut gave him a look like r u kidding me?!? and he was like fine then..i was just trying to help..and i understand that moses but when im upset and pissed off mood i don't want to be come friedns with anybody at that time...i showed sam and monet and petra and kevin what sosa did to my wrists when he wouldn't let me go...and there was no point in me being there so sam just told me ot go...and i did...chantil came up after me to see if i was ok...i was crying..my legs were shaking so no i wasn't ok..she was tryin ot say that it wasn't all sosa s fault and shit when i wasn't the one who started it...he did..but whatever..seh came to my house and my mom called and i had to tell ehr that i was getting written up otherwise i would get in trouble for not telling her and she was pretty upset ..but then the bus driver called and i told him everything taht happened and he said he doesn't like writing poeple up who were provocted so he was going ot try and not write me up...but he asked for the otehr names he was gonna write kevin up but i told him kevin didn't do anything and not ot write him up..but i guess he might write me ,sosa and moses up,so idk but then my mom tremember that i said i got kicked directly in the chest where my heart is and i have ashma and you can cause alot of problems when u kick someone directly in the chest like that...so the paramedics came and my mom called sosas house and asked ot tlak to his dad..and it was sosa trying to pretend to be his dad he did that 3 times...and that pissed my mom off and she was going ot press charges but i begged her not to...and thats pretty much all of the story..but im grounded for 2 weeks and that means i can't ride the bus!!so im gonna be getting rides to school for a while but my says that i have an impulse disorder so i was looking it up and this is what i got............::
"Intermittent Explosive Disorder - There is often an underlying personality disorder that accompanies a disorder called Intermittent Explosive Disorder which is, itself, considered a disorder of impulse. Such individuals are prone to aggressive outbursts when under stress. They may perceive the stress as threat, frustration, insult, vulnerability or any combination of the above. Some of these individual have unusual EEG (brain) wave patterns or changes in brain chemistry. There may also be "soft" neurological findings, but the disorder is considered to arise from poor control of impulse when needs or demands are not met. As the individual accumulates a series of experiences in which such behaviors are tolerated, often beginning early in life, the behavior continues. The threat to individuals and property can be substantial. There are those for which this pattern of behavior suddenly emerges. The person is often upset, guilt-laden and remorseful after the rage filled episode even though there may be a sense of relief after the aggresive outburst.
i read that and its soo me!!im not saying that it is an excuse for the way i acted but i didn't know what else to do he jsut kept pushing me and pushing me!i tried to walk away many times but he jsut kept pushing me....so thats how i reacted...so im not gonna be on the bus for about 2 weeks and me and sosa have to stay away from each other...and i DON"T ahve my cell phone anymore so don't call it and don't call the house if you need to tlak to me write me and give it ot me at school.....i know this sounds weird but thats just how it has to be for a while..so yeah don't call me...u can call my cell and i'll check messages..but my mom can aso do that so keep in mind what u say...ok everyone so i'll see u all @ school and i'll tlak ot you all later!! i KNOW that this is long but its important...kkk
so i'll see you all later!! COMMENT!!