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[nidking]

*takes a deep breath* Its one of those nights. all my family have gone out and im left with myself and a film, it dosent take two seconds for me to start thinking that i wish you were here. I wish things were different, i miss your company your touch and your love. Feeling really shit and lonely.

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[nidking]

i tried to digress in my last email, in an attempt to get a reply.

i dont want to come across mean i just wanna be honnest, i know talking would make it easier for you and it would be a good thing, but i honnestly dont think it would help me. when i realise im missing you like today when i got back from college, im missing my girlfriend louise, im missing us and what we had the security of it all, being able to depend on you, thats the louise i miss. that louise couldnt live without mean and the nick i was couldnt live with out her. trying to find her in you would be trying in vain, i might aswell look for a castle in the sky.

So i do want to talk to you, i really wannaknow how things are going for you, and what youve learnt on your guitar, if you looking forward to christmas , how your course is tonnes, but id get no comfort from it for times like today. id still be missing my louise whilst talking to you. what will help me is time, its helped alot already, one day ill just realise that i havent thought about our ex relationship in ages and i wont get these moments again. hope you understand. If you want to talk, talk to me theres plenty of ways.

[xandria_uk]

No, I'm sorry - it just felt like you were reaching out a little. I'll wait till you're ready and then I'm sure things will be OK.

[nidking]

whatever :)