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i've been feeling pretty bored and lonely and anxious these days. What can you say though when no one really wants to hang out with you cause you're a lunatic piece of shit nobody. I know ben fucked me over today, he knows it to. I still can't wait to see him and say I love you too. Nothing is ever up to me I lived a curse said life. I know someday I will meet my god under a burning light. maybe we will sit and talk all through the evening. next to a campfire and sing songs of jingle-ling ling. I do my best to stay out of trouble cause mother tells me so. But it really gets on my tailbone to know I'll never get to snow. snow is something that comes from the sky that cools the summer off, just after fall we celebrate a holiday for fun. there is always candy there is always love. there is always gifts for everyone. anything we do, will poison us someday so lets just forget about it and start walking a way. a path in the road that leads us, cowering but true. we know that beauty does exist in me and me and you. -virgo.
I tried my hardest to win a game where I can only lose, and losing was my giving name and it didnt bring me back to you. rather I fell apart like a blondie song playing a harp. I know today I'll fall asleep under a sun. the moon it keeps me awake when dreams become real, a creature turned for better not worse will give us all the blues. I guess im just a puppy or so many people think so, I pretend i am a bear so I don't feel so cold.
Toadguard was my girlfriend the best friend a guy could have, I still wonder today what bothers her to not know where I am.
I guess I never mattered I never worked things out, but what can I say when I listen to twilight by elliott smith on the shelf.