myron
Today was an ok day I guess until I found out that Myron is back in lockport visiting Jenny. He has got to be doing something with her for him to keep going back there his excuse is he's just visiting his friends yeah right!! I don't know why he is doing this to me I would die for this man and he still doesn't realize. My best friend Nicole is in Pennsavania so I have no one to talk to about this sort of stuff. I talked to Myron's brother yesterday but I haven't talked to Myron since wednesday I had to find out he was in lockport from one of my friends down there I guess he never planned on telling me that he was going there. Oh well I guess I'll just have to deal with it. I had a weird dream last night. I dremt about one of my ex- special friends Eddie Desades. I do miss him alot and all I've been doing is thinking about him lately I haven't figured out why yet though. I loved him also but he was very controlling he acted like my father more then a boyfriend. It also took him 4 mounths until we slept togetther and then I wasn't even allowed to tell anyone about us. I guess because he's older then me. I have to stop talking to older guys cause there're so much more difficult but yet much more mature. I think I should just stay away from men for the rest of my life. And people wonder why people turn guy.