Lament of the Unborn Childre'
So for the past couple weeks I've still just been drinking a lot and playing guitar. Everything's been kinda weird and confusing lately. I did however go to Weazil's party and that was cool, drank a bit and watched the Matrix with Dan since he never saw the second one, poor bastard is very depreived, he hasn't even seen the 3rd one...tsk tsk. Weazil gave me some passes for Dream Palace so if he ever goes I'll go with him but if not I'll have to walk in as a newbie and figure out things for myself. I still have to get him his present so that I don't feel like an asshole since he got me graduation shit. I talked to Sara yesterday for about 3 hours just about what happened and our past. Supposedly she wants to be friends with me and start talking again like we used to. I make her laugh and I'm "Nice" and shit so she likes that about me. We'll see what happens as I go through these steps once more. Weazil sent me this creepy ass song by Fantomas called Rosmary's Baby. It's pretty whicked. I sent it to some of my friends today and they were like all creeped out by it. I wish I could have that effect on people, I know I scare them right now, but just to look at them or talk and they are just utterly mortified by the fact that I am who I am and they can't deal with it. Jen and I fought for a while the other day as well, but things are fixed once more, thank God. Friggen I didn't even know what was going on since I've been away for a while so when I came back, things were kinda fucked up. But we patched everything up again and we are cool. Rj might wanna date Chelle again or something, I really don't know what's going on with him. He's always got some hair raising ideas about how life should be, hopefully he'll figure things out and just be happy with her from now on. MEanwhile I'm still waiting for my chance at life to have that solice and empathy for another that I could at least share part of my lonley life with. So Rj came over today, we were gonna play some Zelda and shit as well as take pics of us for Judgeme.net but unfortuantly my mother took the camera with her and Rj had to go to work shortly after. So then after he left, I sat back down at the computer, logged him out of all the shit he gets into and started talking to Sara again, she was there doing her online homework so I shared some stories with her and just kept her from being bored while she was trying to take a break from school work. I learned some songs today from Sinergy, Megadeth, In Flames and some other shit that I was just dicking around with ,but ohhh well. Hopefully I'll get them down as good as they sound and figure out how to make me better. I'll catch up with you people later. If I left anything out please tell me.