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Things are going really well right now, despite the circumstances. I was thrown out of my house a week ago today, and I didn't get all fucked up over it. Before, I would've immediately gotten high, passed out, and woke up like nothing happened, until I realized all my shit was outside. But because I'm clean, and I'm developing quite a nice head on my shoulders, I was able to A.) recognize the problem for what it was, B.) formulate as good of a solution that I could for the problem, and C.) ask for help with solving my problem. And right now, it's great. I have a huge bedroom with a DOOR for once, a gigantic bathroom with 2 sinks, a standup shower, AND a big fuckin tub, a living room, kitchen, a yard, and it's all mine.
But what was really amazing to me was that I asked people I wasn't too horribly close with for help and care. I wasn't very comfortable with that at first, but I pretty much had to learn to be comfortable with that really fast, or be homeless.
Things are ok with Hannah too. I'm really grateful for the small amount of problems we have. I'll sit there, and we'll be in an arguement (or a disagreement, as she calls them.) and I'll be thinking to myself, "I'm getting chewed out, and for once it's not 'you're sleeping with her, aren't you?' or 'you're high, aren't you?'" and it feels really great. I'm actually doing a great job of being good to her, for once. I've been completely honest with her about everything. From Rachel to Jen to Me, to anything. She knows all. And I know all with her. And that's a damn good thing to me.
That's all for now.
But what was really amazing to me was that I asked people I wasn't too horribly close with for help and care. I wasn't very comfortable with that at first, but I pretty much had to learn to be comfortable with that really fast, or be homeless.
Things are ok with Hannah too. I'm really grateful for the small amount of problems we have. I'll sit there, and we'll be in an arguement (or a disagreement, as she calls them.) and I'll be thinking to myself, "I'm getting chewed out, and for once it's not 'you're sleeping with her, aren't you?' or 'you're high, aren't you?'" and it feels really great. I'm actually doing a great job of being good to her, for once. I've been completely honest with her about everything. From Rachel to Jen to Me, to anything. She knows all. And I know all with her. And that's a damn good thing to me.
That's all for now.