more visits to hell to come
ok... so i survived my first dentist appointment in years ^^; just the CLEANING hurt because my gums are so sensitive and she had to pick off a bunch of shit that's piled up over the years *is humiliated*. my gums are blood red in some places now, but not because they're bleeding :S. anyway, the dentist said i had to have 3 teeth pulled, 2 of them wisdom teeth and one a tooth a dentist had drilled long ago and never filled, because they're broken and fractured. she said i had 1 absessed tooth and some minor cavities and i needed a deep cleaning... and that's GOOD news... well, drastically better than i'd expected. just one problem. please, oh PLEASE just do local when you pull my teeth, mister or misses oral surgeon T_T PLEASE....? i CAN'T to general again. i can't. i did it once for my diagnosis surgery, and i can't do it again. it made me so sick, even with an anti-nausea drug they'd given me before they put me under, that even the shit they give chemo patients for nausea didn't help for a while and i was in the hospital for HOURS trying to not be nauseous so they could send me home T_T i have a SERIOUS phobia of nausea, vomiting, and vomit in general. even if someone else is doing it. gives me nightmares... once again, i am terrified T_T