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this entry has once again turned into a rather downtrodden synopsis of how i'm feeling at the moment. have i done this too many times before, or do i need to be doing this to figure my life out?
So today was supposed to be a good day, I applied for a job in a cool shop, i had a fun afternoon out with two great people, but i still didn't feel happy, didn't feel content.
Maybe it's because i don't actually have a job yet, or because this evening's activity was a mock casino, which doens't tickle my fancy at all, or because the people i would rather be spending my time with have gone camping in Tofino without me, or because i haven't gone camping and would rather be under canvas with them. haven't been under canvas in months and months.
It's beause i'm not living the life I want to be. i'm not doing the things i enjoy, and I spend too much of my time with people i don't like to be with.
i want to be camping, be mountain biking, be hiking, be climbing, be watching good movies or listening to good music with good people. be working with people to help improve their lives.
i've spent so much time trying to figure out what i wanted to do with my life, and most of it was in there already.
sigh. times like these i need a break.
catchas
So today was supposed to be a good day, I applied for a job in a cool shop, i had a fun afternoon out with two great people, but i still didn't feel happy, didn't feel content.
Maybe it's because i don't actually have a job yet, or because this evening's activity was a mock casino, which doens't tickle my fancy at all, or because the people i would rather be spending my time with have gone camping in Tofino without me, or because i haven't gone camping and would rather be under canvas with them. haven't been under canvas in months and months.
It's beause i'm not living the life I want to be. i'm not doing the things i enjoy, and I spend too much of my time with people i don't like to be with.
i want to be camping, be mountain biking, be hiking, be climbing, be watching good movies or listening to good music with good people. be working with people to help improve their lives.
i've spent so much time trying to figure out what i wanted to do with my life, and most of it was in there already.
sigh. times like these i need a break.
catchas