Shocking Conclusion!!!

[nicolesneurosis]

I am bipolar.

I just found out today. I apparently have more ups than downs and that's what makes me all jittery and anxious. I'm like crazy manic right now, possibly because i am so happy to know that there is something wrong. I start a mood stabilizer which resembles a large horse pill tonight. So in order to be a happy, non-crazy person, I'm going to have to give up my moments where I feel incredible, invincible, and overall amazing. I'm kind of worried that i'm going to become boring. Hopefully I will become nicer.

I need to find a psychiatrist around here, and I will be calling the Kent County Health Department to find out within the next few days. I have spent years of my life feeling like something was fundamentally flawed in my personality, as I am walking around with what is actually a very serious mood disorder. I'm so relieved to know this, and what i can do about it.

Here is a link about how to help a loved one with bipolar disorder/understanding this more... http://www.bipolar.com/helping/helping.htm