update
Yeah so I haven’t updated in awhile... again. I chilled with my friend Bianca recently. We used to be like awesome buds then I moved away from her into the house I‘m in now (we used to live like a minute away from each other (in Stoughton)). She came over for a while then my brother drove us to her house. Well her friend Danielle ended up coming over. We ended up going out and driving around with Bo. He’s cute I guess. We went to Wendys cause he was hungry. Dern he took forever to order lol. Then we went into the parking lot across the street from McDonalds so he could eat and Danielle ended up leaving with these two other guys. Then like out of nowhere Mike Pupko and Matt Sussmen (sorry about spelling... I suck) showed up and some other guy did too...I forgot his name...oh well. Well we talked for a bit then Bo was going to drive me and Bianca to her house and apparently he was giving Matt a ride home too because he sat next to me in the back and we like play fought the whole time... it was funny. Yeah whatever with that I guess. It was fun but I kind of felt out of place.
As most of you already know Mike and me broke up. I forget what day though...oh well. There were just some trust issues but that’s okay. It really bothered me and stuff... it still kind of does but I’m getting over it. At the fireworks I really wanted to cry because he showed up and stuff. We like didn’t talk to me or anything so it just made me feel bad that like I went out with him and now the only time we talked was online... like as if he didn’t care we went out. I also heard that he was making out with some other chick that day (the 3rd of July) so that really made me feel like he didn’t care that we went out or broke up. I guess I am just a waste of time but I’m used to feeling worthless. You know I really do hate myself... It’s great. Like half the time... well more then half the time I really wish I wasn’t here, that I could just randomly disappear or die. Err I guess I should probably stop there. Well anyhow, the only real good thing about the night was that I got to see a lot of people I hadn’t seen in a while. I saw aaron... and well let’s just say all the feelings I had for him before are pretty much coming back....Shhh don’t tell him... I got a crush on him hehe ;) We watched the fireworks together with everyone... it was great. Then after he walked me to my car...he is such a sweetheart!! He has my lip gloss still (I had asked him to hold it). The sad thing is that on the way to my car I mentioned to him that he still had it and that I’d just get it at my car but when we got there I was just kind of overwhelmed with feelings that I forgot...woops.
I had to go to the cape all yesterday...it sucked! I hate it there. But then I went to Danielle’s and Sarah came over too... well she was ther4e before me lol. I hadn't seen them in a week so it was cool. I got to see her new puppy... it’s so cute. We went to the mall today... it was fun. We made a friend Joe and some other guy... with an alligator belt right Sarah haha... it was deff. a moose! Eh well I’m going to go... talk to ya’ll l8r.