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Life isnt going very happy right now. i just feel like im nothing right now. These last few days at school have been hell. in Civics right now we are doing these interveiw things that i dont get at all and im angry because im going to have to get up in front of the class tomorrow and look like a fucking idiot. i hate school so much. im so ready to be done. after school today we had our fastpitch meeting with coach and i misawell just give up now and not try out because i know theres so many more younger kids under me that are better and i dont want to be put on varsity as a pitty player just because im a senior so im debating wheather to play or not. then i come home to hell. i just cant wait it move out of this house. i am not coming back here ever again. im not even going to live near my parents because all i am is a fucking waste of space to them. all i do is get bitched at. its fucking bullshit. i need to go get a job asap now. i gotta get out of here. all i want to do is change something in my life but i just cant find it. i was talking to Cody on the phone today about how i want a boyfriend right now and how things were really weird with us. his new gf seems really nice. im happy for him. i just need to do something about my life because im unhappy right now. ive tried changing my look and im just the same old ugly ass hoff that is anoyying and fucking stupid. well enough bitching about my life i gotta do something because i a little bitter and unhappy as you can see....why dont things ever turn out the way you want them to?