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there arnt many more words to express how i feel right now besides depressed, wanting to cry(you kno i dont dotat often) and lonely.
today was a beautiful day. the kind where you can drive around town with the window down and blast that music.
school was really long and i fell asleep in 2 n 4th. we had a sub in 3 n 5 and the one in 3rd as really cool she was young and she told us storys and 5th was fun because we were playing on the computer.
after school we all went over to mollys and then to the dq afer that it was nap time at kts then back to mollys for dinner. then joe, chase and rickey came over and thats when my day got shitty. it was the 3 couples and me. i was so mad. i went and sat in the other room for about half an hour. i called channy because i know she cares about how i feel but she was sleeping so sent her back to bed. then sitting there just looking at the wall a lot went through my head. im so sick of this. all i wanted to do was leave. but i didnt drive, i should have just went for a walk. then molly came and pulled me back in with the people. i saw way more then i wanted to tonight, have some respect people, there is a time a place for that but not when your with yor friends. you should be spending time with them if your going to do that leave. i saw too many hands below the border and i am not happy about. i think i should be appoligze to about it. rach was a good cuddler! she may be one of the best! joe was so drunk it was funny.
so then i finally came home to my brother, andy and cody and i had a chat about life with them. i love those boys. i want a boy to come to me. thats what i like about cody so much.
to get to some good news i came home to a letter from ewu saying that they got my ish and that im fanilly enrolled in college. it feels so nice to know ill be geting out of here and starting a whole new life. they said i will know about scholarship ish within the next month even though it doesnt matter im already going there and they already have my $ for my down payment.
well i need to go to bed because im such a good friend i came up with this great idea of going to get sarah up at western and then coming right home just so she could be with us longer and go to dinner. what kind of a friend does that? a good loving friend. what i am even though some people dont see it.
i need to go to bed before i say something i may regret. anyways im so so angry........
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today was a beautiful day. the kind where you can drive around town with the window down and blast that music.
school was really long and i fell asleep in 2 n 4th. we had a sub in 3 n 5 and the one in 3rd as really cool she was young and she told us storys and 5th was fun because we were playing on the computer.
after school we all went over to mollys and then to the dq afer that it was nap time at kts then back to mollys for dinner. then joe, chase and rickey came over and thats when my day got shitty. it was the 3 couples and me. i was so mad. i went and sat in the other room for about half an hour. i called channy because i know she cares about how i feel but she was sleeping so sent her back to bed. then sitting there just looking at the wall a lot went through my head. im so sick of this. all i wanted to do was leave. but i didnt drive, i should have just went for a walk. then molly came and pulled me back in with the people. i saw way more then i wanted to tonight, have some respect people, there is a time a place for that but not when your with yor friends. you should be spending time with them if your going to do that leave. i saw too many hands below the border and i am not happy about. i think i should be appoligze to about it. rach was a good cuddler! she may be one of the best! joe was so drunk it was funny.
so then i finally came home to my brother, andy and cody and i had a chat about life with them. i love those boys. i want a boy to come to me. thats what i like about cody so much.
to get to some good news i came home to a letter from ewu saying that they got my ish and that im fanilly enrolled in college. it feels so nice to know ill be geting out of here and starting a whole new life. they said i will know about scholarship ish within the next month even though it doesnt matter im already going there and they already have my $ for my down payment.
well i need to go to bed because im such a good friend i came up with this great idea of going to get sarah up at western and then coming right home just so she could be with us longer and go to dinner. what kind of a friend does that? a good loving friend. what i am even though some people dont see it.
i need to go to bed before i say something i may regret. anyways im so so angry........
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