why can't you just leave me alone?

[nicolecardillo]

would that be so hard?

after all this shit you want to know how i'm doing?

WHY? why do you care NOW?

please just go away..
you can't come and go in and out of my life like this.
it's too painful.
you gave that up, remember.
YOU did this.
that's a choice you've made.
live with it.

i thought i was doing pretty well.

then you sent me a text message at 2 in the morning.
i don't care if you want to let me know that you miss me and that you'll always love me.
fuck that.
i hate who you are.
i hate what you've become.
mostly i hate who i've become because of you.
because i let you in.
because i let myself let you do this shit to me.

just stop it.
i don't want to do this anymore.
we've been beating this dead horse for god knows how long.

its done.
now its time to burry it.

let me go. please.
let me live my life for me because i'm never gonna get this back.
i'll be damned if i lose anymore of me to you.

i hope somehow you're telepathic, because the thought of talking to you and telling you this makes me sick and angry.