Ahhh....a break
I was supposed to have my tubes tied yesterday, but last weekend I had some serious reservations about it. I talked it over with some people, and came to the conclusion that I am not ready to be done.
That being said, I am SOOO ready for a break. I couldn't take another month on the rollercoaster. I had them put an IUD in so I have time to just relax, love my kids, play with my dog and be in a normal marriage to my DH without all the pressure of getting pregnant, staying pregnant and recovering from loss. It feels good.
I woke up this morning listening to the birds singing and knowing the weather was going to be nice and thought, "this is going to be a great day!" I havent woken up like that in a long time.
They still have no reasons for my losses, but when talking to another specialist yesterday, he said for sure my body needs a break, then see if we are ready to try again. We will also still be looking into and maybe pursuing adoption, but I want to see if that is the road my heart wants to take.
That being said, I am SOOO ready for a break. I couldn't take another month on the rollercoaster. I had them put an IUD in so I have time to just relax, love my kids, play with my dog and be in a normal marriage to my DH without all the pressure of getting pregnant, staying pregnant and recovering from loss. It feels good.
I woke up this morning listening to the birds singing and knowing the weather was going to be nice and thought, "this is going to be a great day!" I havent woken up like that in a long time.
They still have no reasons for my losses, but when talking to another specialist yesterday, he said for sure my body needs a break, then see if we are ready to try again. We will also still be looking into and maybe pursuing adoption, but I want to see if that is the road my heart wants to take.