Therapy
Okay...I am sure no one reads this so I am going to use this as my therapy to get my feelings out there and out of my head.
I you are reading this and care to comment, feel free.
This used to be my way of keeping in touch with a friend, but it is now going to be away to process things.
Here it goes.
What is up with people. Do they think that because this keeps happening that it gets any easier. Nope, it doesn't. Noone even thought to call me this time. And most likely this is the time that I needed the most support because it is the end of the road for us to have a baby naturally. That is something that I need to grieve as well. If you don't know what to say, just say how sorry you are. That is all. Don't ignore me, don't not call me, and don't just not acknowledge the fact that I am hurting.
I may be judging people on how I would treat them if they were in this situation, but honestly, I don't know of anyone in my situation with later losses and it sucks. NO success stories.
Moving on to adoption helps a little. We just want to complete our family. I struggle with the fact that I was adopted and struggeld with the fact I didn't feel whole all through the teen years and do I really want to do that to someone else? Or would I be more capable of handling it because of my life experiences? I dunno. More questions than I am willing to ask right now.
I you are reading this and care to comment, feel free.
This used to be my way of keeping in touch with a friend, but it is now going to be away to process things.
Here it goes.
What is up with people. Do they think that because this keeps happening that it gets any easier. Nope, it doesn't. Noone even thought to call me this time. And most likely this is the time that I needed the most support because it is the end of the road for us to have a baby naturally. That is something that I need to grieve as well. If you don't know what to say, just say how sorry you are. That is all. Don't ignore me, don't not call me, and don't just not acknowledge the fact that I am hurting.
I may be judging people on how I would treat them if they were in this situation, but honestly, I don't know of anyone in my situation with later losses and it sucks. NO success stories.
Moving on to adoption helps a little. We just want to complete our family. I struggle with the fact that I was adopted and struggeld with the fact I didn't feel whole all through the teen years and do I really want to do that to someone else? Or would I be more capable of handling it because of my life experiences? I dunno. More questions than I am willing to ask right now.