Wow, I finally realized what was right in front of my face!!
Okay, so in one of my last entries, I went on about how I was confused with what I wanted in the man department? Well, Saturday night Monica and I went out to the bar to have a couple drinks Jamie and Randy were there, which makes a great combination! Before that I was kind of avoiding Jamie, which I really don't know why, probably cause I was just trying to decide what I wanted. Well, we got up to the bar and Randy of course was right by my side before I even had a chance to sit down, Jamie was there, and he came up and said hi to Monica and I and then went to finish his conversations somewhere else. Well, the bar was closing and everyone was going to a party up the road, Randy was way too drunk to drive anywhere and he didn't have a ride, so being the nice person I am, I volunteered to give him a ride. I was trying to be very fliratious with Randy cause I knew Jamie was watching me. Like when we were in the bar, Randy was rubbing my back and Monica said Jamie was standing a little bit behind me and was watching. He was getting pissed, and the more pissed he got the more he drank. Well, anyway we went up to that party, and Jamie was there too, I gave Monica a ride home and then came back to wait for Randy so I could give him a ride home. I was getting really jealous cause this slutty girl was hitting on Jamie and he was falling for it. They both started to walk off towards his truck for something i'm not sure what they did, but I was watching with a close eye, I was about ready to kick that bitches ass, I was so pissed. When he came back, he asked me if I was having fun, and I was like "It looks like you just did." He grabbed my arm and pulled me aside and said that he swears up and down and nothing happened with this girl, that they were just talking, and it was mainly about me. If it was true or not, I was still pissed, all I said was whatever Jamie we'll talk about this later, and I walked away, he knew I was furious. Randy and I left the party about 3:30 and he wanted to go into town for breakfast... with Jamie and three other people. So we drove all the way into town for breakfast and Jamie was there too, but he didn't really say much to me. I was pissed, then all Randy was talking about was how he needed to get laid, and I said he wasn't getting it from me. What made it worse was, I think Jamie thought I was going home with Randy, which I definately wasn't, I dropped him off and then went right home. But what I finally realized was how much I do like Jamie, I have never gotten that mad over a guy before, and I could have cared less what Randy was doing, I was only worried about Jamie. So I decided I want an official relationship with Jamie and i'm not worrying about school right now, i'll just play it out and see what happens. I'm going over his house tomorrow and telling him all this, especially how pissed I am. I don't really have a reason to be mad, cause we aren't official but it still pisses me off cause I like him so much.