Seavor Alan Skinner, Fuck you.
" the virgin said give it time "
I'm just saying thank you. You reminded me of what I'm capable of feeling. It's like I was... walking around seeing my life through a smudged window, and then I saw you and the smudges were gone. The window was clean - Dawosns Creek.
it was near the end of my senior year in high school. There was this boy that I believed was a good one. He made me laugh every day...even when I didn't want to smile, which made me like him more. He was a handsome boy too and a great friend. We talked a few times a week and worked together, it was always a good time. Then finally we hung out at my friends party...i was really drunk and a mess and he just laughed at me. Then it was time for time to for him to leave and he said bye nicole and i jst said bye and as he drove away sat in the drive madd i didnt make a move then the car comes back & he gets out kisses me and says give it time... so i decided i listen to him and give it time. time went on things seemed to be getting better. we wnet to prom together and it was probally one of the most amazing nights of my life. and we had a few make out sessions , which were great. He made me feel beautiful made me feel alive. He reminded me so what i am capable of feeling and it was amazing. He never had a girlffriend before, which meant he didnt know how to act and he didnt but i didnt care, i understood. I tohught he would see that. My feelings for him grew deeper and deeper. He was also a virgin but that again didnt bother me. Because i knew it jus wasn't for sex. He seem to be a great preson and friend. but as time went on feelings faded & died . He turned out to be a dick, who said things were uncalled for and be like sorry i was high. Girls you dont want that or need that. Now i didnt judge what he did it was his life and never try to change a boy but dont take there bullshit, every girl is better than that. Thats when i realized i settled for less than i desreved and got less than i desreved. it hurt but it was worth it. I love him for everything he is. he taught me alot & was ther perfect boy to end high school with but for begin college with. & what he tauht me the most is to never underestament someone....thats alll i gotta say. <3 summer ended. but my love for him didnt. i tried to make it seem like ive moved on but i still wanted him, he just made me so happy. i want to be that happy. am i going to keep pushing myslef away or should i try again. they say "you never know what you have til its gone... " 3 months later and still on this fucking kid. uh whyyy?!!! There is something about him that just wont let me move on... what is it? I'm sure ill find out. So the more i think About it no boy is worth is pain or time so i am going to move on...
“Good-bye Virgin , Good Bye”
How to move on when you maybe not want too...
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. No more. I have to move on. Even if its not what i totally want i want.. it’s whats best for me. Sometime you have to put yourslef 1st. 1st step..do not talk to him unless he talks first. Dont say hi or text or im or anything. You have to totally kick someone out of you life to get over them. or mixxed feelings happen. 2nd step STOP THINKING ABOUT THE PAST. Its not going to happen agian its the past.. move on. 3rd step play the number game or the flirt game . Step 4 believe your better..believe you dont need himm... you were fine before him you will be fine after him. YOU GOT THIS. HANG IN THERE GIRL.
“The Virgin is no longer a Virgin”
So maybe I didn't totally let go, but hey I was in love. and His friendship was one thing in my life that truly made me happy. And when he got into trouble its worried me cause I cared, so I showed him I cared. Which I guess meant something to him. Then one night, we hung out. And only thing lead to another. But we are just friends, but whatever we had sex. And now it meant nothing. nothing at all. I didnt want it to mean something big but something, I'm a good person. right? Well needless to say the heartless prick kissed one of my best friends about 48 hours later. That kiss made me realize he was the biggest mistake of my whole entire life. Made me realize what a loser I feel for. Made me realize the one boy that made me laugh when I didnt wanna smile was now the boy that made me sick to my stomach. The boy was a joke. And I was done forever. No more wanting him. It was all over. Forever. And I was actually okay with it. Happy with it. So Seavor Skinner, fuck you. Oh wait I already did that.
I'm just saying thank you. You reminded me of what I'm capable of feeling. It's like I was... walking around seeing my life through a smudged window, and then I saw you and the smudges were gone. The window was clean - Dawosns Creek.
it was near the end of my senior year in high school. There was this boy that I believed was a good one. He made me laugh every day...even when I didn't want to smile, which made me like him more. He was a handsome boy too and a great friend. We talked a few times a week and worked together, it was always a good time. Then finally we hung out at my friends party...i was really drunk and a mess and he just laughed at me. Then it was time for time to for him to leave and he said bye nicole and i jst said bye and as he drove away sat in the drive madd i didnt make a move then the car comes back & he gets out kisses me and says give it time... so i decided i listen to him and give it time. time went on things seemed to be getting better. we wnet to prom together and it was probally one of the most amazing nights of my life. and we had a few make out sessions , which were great. He made me feel beautiful made me feel alive. He reminded me so what i am capable of feeling and it was amazing. He never had a girlffriend before, which meant he didnt know how to act and he didnt but i didnt care, i understood. I tohught he would see that. My feelings for him grew deeper and deeper. He was also a virgin but that again didnt bother me. Because i knew it jus wasn't for sex. He seem to be a great preson and friend. but as time went on feelings faded & died . He turned out to be a dick, who said things were uncalled for and be like sorry i was high. Girls you dont want that or need that. Now i didnt judge what he did it was his life and never try to change a boy but dont take there bullshit, every girl is better than that. Thats when i realized i settled for less than i desreved and got less than i desreved. it hurt but it was worth it. I love him for everything he is. he taught me alot & was ther perfect boy to end high school with but for begin college with. & what he tauht me the most is to never underestament someone....thats alll i gotta say. <3 summer ended. but my love for him didnt. i tried to make it seem like ive moved on but i still wanted him, he just made me so happy. i want to be that happy. am i going to keep pushing myslef away or should i try again. they say "you never know what you have til its gone... " 3 months later and still on this fucking kid. uh whyyy?!!! There is something about him that just wont let me move on... what is it? I'm sure ill find out. So the more i think About it no boy is worth is pain or time so i am going to move on...
“Good-bye Virgin , Good Bye”
How to move on when you maybe not want too...
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. No more. I have to move on. Even if its not what i totally want i want.. it’s whats best for me. Sometime you have to put yourslef 1st. 1st step..do not talk to him unless he talks first. Dont say hi or text or im or anything. You have to totally kick someone out of you life to get over them. or mixxed feelings happen. 2nd step STOP THINKING ABOUT THE PAST. Its not going to happen agian its the past.. move on. 3rd step play the number game or the flirt game . Step 4 believe your better..believe you dont need himm... you were fine before him you will be fine after him. YOU GOT THIS. HANG IN THERE GIRL.
“The Virgin is no longer a Virgin”
So maybe I didn't totally let go, but hey I was in love. and His friendship was one thing in my life that truly made me happy. And when he got into trouble its worried me cause I cared, so I showed him I cared. Which I guess meant something to him. Then one night, we hung out. And only thing lead to another. But we are just friends, but whatever we had sex. And now it meant nothing. nothing at all. I didnt want it to mean something big but something, I'm a good person. right? Well needless to say the heartless prick kissed one of my best friends about 48 hours later. That kiss made me realize he was the biggest mistake of my whole entire life. Made me realize what a loser I feel for. Made me realize the one boy that made me laugh when I didnt wanna smile was now the boy that made me sick to my stomach. The boy was a joke. And I was done forever. No more wanting him. It was all over. Forever. And I was actually okay with it. Happy with it. So Seavor Skinner, fuck you. Oh wait I already did that.