Possession sucks..by request..Teyla's POV
I've had quite a few requests to do Teyla's POV on this challenge.
So here goes
Title: Possession Sucks
Author: Nicole
Pariring: John/Teyla
Rating: PG on this one
Spoilers: The long goodbye
Summary: Teyla POV to the challenge start with "I never wanted to be in love.
Teyla POV
I never wanted to be in love. The day I first met John Sheppard, I realized something I had never let myself see before.
I was alone.
True, I had Charin, and my people, but it was not the same. I had never known what it was like to meet your other half. Until he smiled at me and the world seemed just a little brighter. The first time he touched me in the cave my heart stopped. I will never admit it to anyone but I longed for him to kiss me right then.
Then much to my shock a few months ago he finally did. I was surprised. I told him later not to mention it again. Made him think it was not important.
I lied.
“He cares for you more than you know.”
Is this alien lying now just to save his own skin? Does John truly care for me as more than just friends? When he kissed me, was that really him? Or was it just the virus controlling him? So many questions that I never had the courage to ask.
Now it is too late.
I swallow back the bile in my throat, knowing that it doesn’t matter, it cannot. No matter how much I may care for this man, I must kill him. It is what John wants me to do.
So why have I not pulled the trigger yet?
The being controlling John locks his eyes on mine. I am fighting back the tears with every once of control I have....but I am not sure it is going to be enough.
Then there is a flicker of something familiar in those hazel eyes I know so well. For just a moment I could have sworn I saw John looking back at me. Then it was gone, replaced by the cold eyes of a man with nothing left to lose.
Is that how I’ll look once I fire this weapon?
I am not only about to kill the man I love....but a large part of myself as well. After today I know I will never be whole again. Even knowing this...I will fire....because I love him.
“Forgive me John.”
The words sound hollow but there is nothing else I can say. I can only pray he understands. There is no other option.
I stare into his eyes one last time and cannot help but remember John’s colorful commentary about one of the many “movies” of Earth. Specifically the Exorcist.
John was right.....Possession does suck.
feedback is love...I need it like....pasta????
:)))
So here goes
Title: Possession Sucks
Author: Nicole
Pariring: John/Teyla
Rating: PG on this one
Spoilers: The long goodbye
Summary: Teyla POV to the challenge start with "I never wanted to be in love.
Teyla POV
I never wanted to be in love. The day I first met John Sheppard, I realized something I had never let myself see before.
I was alone.
True, I had Charin, and my people, but it was not the same. I had never known what it was like to meet your other half. Until he smiled at me and the world seemed just a little brighter. The first time he touched me in the cave my heart stopped. I will never admit it to anyone but I longed for him to kiss me right then.
Then much to my shock a few months ago he finally did. I was surprised. I told him later not to mention it again. Made him think it was not important.
I lied.
“He cares for you more than you know.”
Is this alien lying now just to save his own skin? Does John truly care for me as more than just friends? When he kissed me, was that really him? Or was it just the virus controlling him? So many questions that I never had the courage to ask.
Now it is too late.
I swallow back the bile in my throat, knowing that it doesn’t matter, it cannot. No matter how much I may care for this man, I must kill him. It is what John wants me to do.
So why have I not pulled the trigger yet?
The being controlling John locks his eyes on mine. I am fighting back the tears with every once of control I have....but I am not sure it is going to be enough.
Then there is a flicker of something familiar in those hazel eyes I know so well. For just a moment I could have sworn I saw John looking back at me. Then it was gone, replaced by the cold eyes of a man with nothing left to lose.
Is that how I’ll look once I fire this weapon?
I am not only about to kill the man I love....but a large part of myself as well. After today I know I will never be whole again. Even knowing this...I will fire....because I love him.
“Forgive me John.”
The words sound hollow but there is nothing else I can say. I can only pray he understands. There is no other option.
I stare into his eyes one last time and cannot help but remember John’s colorful commentary about one of the many “movies” of Earth. Specifically the Exorcist.
John was right.....Possession does suck.
feedback is love...I need it like....pasta????
:)))