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The past few days have been nothing great...i havent been in the best mood lately. Everyone's just been getting on my nerves. I don't know why, but I've just wanted to detach myself from everyone and everything for the past few days. One day off from everything is all I want. I always work Monday, Wednesday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday and then on the two days that I'm actually off- I'm in school alllll day. There's never a day when I can just relax the whole day. I feel guilty when I wanna go to sleep after being at work from 8-4 or being at school all day becuase then my parents will call me lazy and then I start to neglect my homework. The last thing I wanna do is start doing bad in school....I feel myself slipping though. But it's like what to I give up then? I guess I don't need to be working 35 hours a week but when I get my paycheck every week it seems like it's worth it. I give up a lotta my sleep so I can see Matt during the week too. Aghh I dunno...I just wish I was one of those people who can handle 50 different things at once and still be th happiest person alive. I'll put on a front for everyone and pretend that everything is okay and that I can handle it, when in realtiy I can't