How is it so easy to screw up something so important....(like life?)
So today could be classified as a rollercoaster of emotions day. Wait. Let's go back to friday. Friday started off great. I got up and got my hair done. It's really cute. I had the lady put red highlights in it. I hung out with my cousin Khristal for most of the day and we had fun. Then I started feeling a little sick, like a cold was coming on about half way through the day. I was okay with that. I didn't feel too bad. Khristal and I went to her new house and my aunt Amy needed a tape measure. I told her I'd run to my house and get one for her. I got to my house and got it and then proceeded to go back to her house when all of a sudden my car starts going clickclikcckclk, and then my friends Yolanda died. I coasted into a nearby driveway. Strange thing is my aunt Amy pulls up beside me and says "what happened?" Weird because I had just left her house to get the tape measure for her. Anyways... we got the thing towed and I went home and waited for Paul to get home. We ended up getting his tux for prom and then I went to see the sound of music. The musical was actually A LOT better than I thought it was going to be. Abby didn't stink the place up like I thought she would. I started really feeling yucky by that time. And my car sucking didn't help. After the musical we went to George Webbs and I really just wanted to go home cuz I felt like crap. I definitely took my first sick day on saturday. Sleep is good.
Sunday was kind of a blah day. I had childrens church with Eric who wasn't helping at all. I was a bit frusterated with him, cuz I already didn't really want to deal with kids and he was making them rowdy. I went home and Paul and I took a nap. We went to the evening service. Came back to my house and sat.
Today I was depressed almost all morning. I did feel relatively useful though. Alex broke her foot and she ended up bringing me to school and I'm not sure she would have made it through with out a helping hand. But yeah I kept thinking about how I'm screwing up my life for absolutly no reason. I kind of went into a small slump and didn't come out of it til I got to work. I was a bit happier there. Until I took my break. I called my mom cuz she left a message and she told me that my car is not reparable. I mean they could fix it but it would cost more than the car is worth. So there's no way. I called Paul and told him what a shitty day I had and made sure he was picking me up, and then I went back to work. I get done with work and I get in Paul's car and there is a bouquet of flowers sitting on his seat. He actually had me smiling. As of this moment he is the only thing not going wrong in my life. As a matter of fact he sort of negates all of the crap that's happening. I love that. He hugged me and everything just sort of got put aside and it was just him loving me and me loving him that much more right back.
Sunday was kind of a blah day. I had childrens church with Eric who wasn't helping at all. I was a bit frusterated with him, cuz I already didn't really want to deal with kids and he was making them rowdy. I went home and Paul and I took a nap. We went to the evening service. Came back to my house and sat.
Today I was depressed almost all morning. I did feel relatively useful though. Alex broke her foot and she ended up bringing me to school and I'm not sure she would have made it through with out a helping hand. But yeah I kept thinking about how I'm screwing up my life for absolutly no reason. I kind of went into a small slump and didn't come out of it til I got to work. I was a bit happier there. Until I took my break. I called my mom cuz she left a message and she told me that my car is not reparable. I mean they could fix it but it would cost more than the car is worth. So there's no way. I called Paul and told him what a shitty day I had and made sure he was picking me up, and then I went back to work. I get done with work and I get in Paul's car and there is a bouquet of flowers sitting on his seat. He actually had me smiling. As of this moment he is the only thing not going wrong in my life. As a matter of fact he sort of negates all of the crap that's happening. I love that. He hugged me and everything just sort of got put aside and it was just him loving me and me loving him that much more right back.