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so yesterday morning my "father" told me he's leaving my mom..i never thought divorce would hurt so much. i find myself not being able to breathe. sixteen years of what i thought was normal is never going to be the same. he didn't stay here last night, he's out for good. i can't even believe its my dad that did this to me...i've been on again off again. i've been balling, and i've been hating him, most of the time i've been keeping myself busy and not thinking about it. he's been seeing someone else for a month, and i guess its serious and they're "in love". i think he is such a fucking pig. what me most upset is that he was shocked from my reaction, he lost all the respect i ever had for him. my mom said he cried and felt horrible, and i'm glad, because i felt worse. all my friends have been more than amazing. randee drove me to school and was my biggest supporter. nicola was awesome and went with me to the library and got my mind off of it. there isn"t anything that you can really say to really make it better, but i appreciate everyone for being there and doing everything possible that you can do. i love you all.