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I'm headed down to Salt Lake City again today. I'm really not looking forward to it, but hopefully they will give me some sort of valuable information and new medication. I was on medication and I had an allergic reaction that occurs in about one in ten thousand people... lucky me. So, I had to quit that, go to the hospital and start taking a steroid that makes me absolutely agitated twenty four hours a day...only a few more days though and I'll be back on a medication to take care of the rest. This new medication is going to make me a different person, which scares me to death. I like who I am and I don't want to be a "zombie," as they are telling me I will feel. I'll just be the wallflower from now on... mind you, the sober one.
The date I am to return to Santa Cruz has been pushed back over and over, originally I was supposed to leave around tomorrow driving the car I was supposed to buy this summer... but considering I can't drive for at least three months that's obviously not happening... not to mention I never invested in that car. Then I had a flight scheduled for the 7th of September and now my doctor has written a letter to Delta to keep me from leaving that soon... I just don't know when I will get there...hopefully sooner than later. I am bored, lonely, depressed and sick of it here. This summer has been too much to deal with.
The date I am to return to Santa Cruz has been pushed back over and over, originally I was supposed to leave around tomorrow driving the car I was supposed to buy this summer... but considering I can't drive for at least three months that's obviously not happening... not to mention I never invested in that car. Then I had a flight scheduled for the 7th of September and now my doctor has written a letter to Delta to keep me from leaving that soon... I just don't know when I will get there...hopefully sooner than later. I am bored, lonely, depressed and sick of it here. This summer has been too much to deal with.