I have too many fantasies to be a housewife, I guess I am a fantasy
I have just recently learned that I love being with my friends more than anything else in this world. Especially being with Shannon and Zesty. Shannon is awesome. Zesty is amazing. I can't imagine being without my friends and not having them in my life. I think with everything that I have been going through that those two are the best people I could have ever have been around with it all. Shan was more than supportive with everything that I had decided and Zesty was there to pick up the pieces that had just crumbled which something amazing came out of a really crappy situation.
I got to meet Shan and Zesty's friend Stephanie tonight. It was a lot of fun. We just sat around and talked and all watched movies. We ended up watching "Don't tell Mom the Babysitters Dead" and "the 40 year old Virgin". It was loads of laughs tonight. For some odd reason we had decided that we wanted to straighten Zesty's hair. It was good fun. It is so long and just adorable. Then we decided to put hair wax in it. So now it is all spikey and just that whole punkish look. It was really hot. I mean really hot. We are trying to convince him to get it straightened permanantly. I would so love that. I love ling hair on guys. Especially spikey long hair. So freakin hot. Hmmm the things that went through my mind...lolol..
In general today was a great day. Woke up at 7.45 to take MArty to the Vet with Shan and Zesty to lose him MANHOOD and his claws. Poor kitty is going to be so sad. I feel horrible. After we dropped MArty off at the vet's we went to McDonalds for breakfast. It was the greatest thing in the world. The McGriddles there are awesome. So so so good. It was like heaven lolol. I completely enjoyed it. Then we took Zesty back to his place so he could get his car and then drove back to the apartment. When we got here we all devoured our breakfast and then found out the Saved By the Bell was on Tv and had to stay up and watch it. After it was over, we went back to sleep and didn't wake up until 1.30. My day was gone. I still felt queesy from last night though so I was dreading going into work. It sucked ass. So I watched Passions and got ready for work and then when I finally went into work, I had two tables in an hour and a half, so I got sent home at 5.30. It sucked ass. It really sucked ass. I made 5 dollars. YAY..That just shows how much I love working Monday nights.
( Off note, I never mentioned why I was sick last night. I had this thing where I can't eat spaghetteo's. I got sick off of them when I was 5 so I refused to eat them until last night. Shan was eating them and I was like ok it's been 15 years since then so I figured that maybe it was jsut one of those things. Well I was wrong. I got sick about half an hour after I ate them... so my little spaghetteo's complex definitely held to be true. Never again! ).
Well, I think I finally met the one person who totally blows my world into pieces. In a great way. I am so rediculously happy right now. And I don't see that changing in a long time. It is a great time. I really enjoy this one. We don't do anything except for hang out and just relax and play Texas hold 'em and other games with Shan. Watch movies and just talk for hours upon hours at a time. I have never felt this kind of connection that I have with him. It's just unreal. Everything with him is unreal. I thought I knew what love was previously but I didn't it is something that I have never felt before and I really enjoy feeling the way I do. I thought I was truthfully happy before but like now that I think about I don't think I ever really was. I never thought that what I have with him was ever possible. And I know in the past I have told ex's that they were everything to me and that I was never happier than before but like now that I look back I think I pretty much settled. There are very few people that I hadn't settled for and I wanna say that it includes two out of my five serious relationships and the one is overseas and the other is also my best friend. I love them both with all of my heart and they will always be amazing to me. I just can't believe the intense connection I have with Michael. It is unreal in every aspect. The things we talk about are just in general great. We can argue/discuss things that we have different views on and still be passionate about the issue and remain calm. I have never been able to remain calm when having a heated discussion with any of my ex's about anything. We will lay in bed at night and just talk each other to sleep. I have told him things that I haven't really repeated to anyone because they are such personal issues with me. I have never LOVED someone the way that I love him. Its great that he loves me the same way. I think he and I are perfect together. To say the least. I think the relationship I have with him is going to last. I don't see myself getting bored with him the way I have in previous relationships. It is always something fun new and exciting, that we do. He has made me dinner which was amazing, probably some of the best food I have had made for me in a long time. It was awesome. We went bowling and had a great time. We went and saw an awesome movie together and have done dinner. And what guy in their right mind would buy me a digital camera that fits in my back pocket for christmas after dating me for only a week. He is wonderful. I can see him trying to give me everything I have ever needed/wanted in my life (including a penguin). But not really material things but like emotional needs as well. I love him. I am happy with him. He completes me in a way that I never thought I would experience. Yay for finding love. :)
Coming from a not so healthy relationship that was purely shallow, made me appreciate the little things. Especially those not so noticable things that I do and get commented on. Like sticking my toes under his legs and wiggling my toes. It is something that no one has ever complimented me on. I was always complimented on my looks and my personality, but getting told those little things are great made me feel awesome. I had asked someone previously to compliment me and he just told me I was beautiful. I wanted more. Which made me realize who I was supposed to be with. It made everything so much easier on me. It made me aware of what I want. I want someone who is going to love me and all of the little things I do and just not the surface stuff like looks and personality. I want simplistic. I want something real. I want what I have right now. I want real unrealistically real love. I am happy. I am in love. I am in my own little euphoria. :)
I love my life right now :)
I got to meet Shan and Zesty's friend Stephanie tonight. It was a lot of fun. We just sat around and talked and all watched movies. We ended up watching "Don't tell Mom the Babysitters Dead" and "the 40 year old Virgin". It was loads of laughs tonight. For some odd reason we had decided that we wanted to straighten Zesty's hair. It was good fun. It is so long and just adorable. Then we decided to put hair wax in it. So now it is all spikey and just that whole punkish look. It was really hot. I mean really hot. We are trying to convince him to get it straightened permanantly. I would so love that. I love ling hair on guys. Especially spikey long hair. So freakin hot. Hmmm the things that went through my mind...lolol..
In general today was a great day. Woke up at 7.45 to take MArty to the Vet with Shan and Zesty to lose him MANHOOD and his claws. Poor kitty is going to be so sad. I feel horrible. After we dropped MArty off at the vet's we went to McDonalds for breakfast. It was the greatest thing in the world. The McGriddles there are awesome. So so so good. It was like heaven lolol. I completely enjoyed it. Then we took Zesty back to his place so he could get his car and then drove back to the apartment. When we got here we all devoured our breakfast and then found out the Saved By the Bell was on Tv and had to stay up and watch it. After it was over, we went back to sleep and didn't wake up until 1.30. My day was gone. I still felt queesy from last night though so I was dreading going into work. It sucked ass. So I watched Passions and got ready for work and then when I finally went into work, I had two tables in an hour and a half, so I got sent home at 5.30. It sucked ass. It really sucked ass. I made 5 dollars. YAY..That just shows how much I love working Monday nights.
( Off note, I never mentioned why I was sick last night. I had this thing where I can't eat spaghetteo's. I got sick off of them when I was 5 so I refused to eat them until last night. Shan was eating them and I was like ok it's been 15 years since then so I figured that maybe it was jsut one of those things. Well I was wrong. I got sick about half an hour after I ate them... so my little spaghetteo's complex definitely held to be true. Never again! ).
Well, I think I finally met the one person who totally blows my world into pieces. In a great way. I am so rediculously happy right now. And I don't see that changing in a long time. It is a great time. I really enjoy this one. We don't do anything except for hang out and just relax and play Texas hold 'em and other games with Shan. Watch movies and just talk for hours upon hours at a time. I have never felt this kind of connection that I have with him. It's just unreal. Everything with him is unreal. I thought I knew what love was previously but I didn't it is something that I have never felt before and I really enjoy feeling the way I do. I thought I was truthfully happy before but like now that I think about I don't think I ever really was. I never thought that what I have with him was ever possible. And I know in the past I have told ex's that they were everything to me and that I was never happier than before but like now that I look back I think I pretty much settled. There are very few people that I hadn't settled for and I wanna say that it includes two out of my five serious relationships and the one is overseas and the other is also my best friend. I love them both with all of my heart and they will always be amazing to me. I just can't believe the intense connection I have with Michael. It is unreal in every aspect. The things we talk about are just in general great. We can argue/discuss things that we have different views on and still be passionate about the issue and remain calm. I have never been able to remain calm when having a heated discussion with any of my ex's about anything. We will lay in bed at night and just talk each other to sleep. I have told him things that I haven't really repeated to anyone because they are such personal issues with me. I have never LOVED someone the way that I love him. Its great that he loves me the same way. I think he and I are perfect together. To say the least. I think the relationship I have with him is going to last. I don't see myself getting bored with him the way I have in previous relationships. It is always something fun new and exciting, that we do. He has made me dinner which was amazing, probably some of the best food I have had made for me in a long time. It was awesome. We went bowling and had a great time. We went and saw an awesome movie together and have done dinner. And what guy in their right mind would buy me a digital camera that fits in my back pocket for christmas after dating me for only a week. He is wonderful. I can see him trying to give me everything I have ever needed/wanted in my life (including a penguin). But not really material things but like emotional needs as well. I love him. I am happy with him. He completes me in a way that I never thought I would experience. Yay for finding love. :)
Coming from a not so healthy relationship that was purely shallow, made me appreciate the little things. Especially those not so noticable things that I do and get commented on. Like sticking my toes under his legs and wiggling my toes. It is something that no one has ever complimented me on. I was always complimented on my looks and my personality, but getting told those little things are great made me feel awesome. I had asked someone previously to compliment me and he just told me I was beautiful. I wanted more. Which made me realize who I was supposed to be with. It made everything so much easier on me. It made me aware of what I want. I want someone who is going to love me and all of the little things I do and just not the surface stuff like looks and personality. I want simplistic. I want something real. I want what I have right now. I want real unrealistically real love. I am happy. I am in love. I am in my own little euphoria. :)
I love my life right now :)