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[nickytheprick]

In response to this.

He looked down at the note again, shaking his head.

Goodbye, Nicky.

Two words. No explanation, no final words between them... he thought things were going right. Apparently he'd been very wrong.

Goodbye, Nicky.God, who the fuck do you call when you wife walks out without a word? When she leaves you a note with two

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[justalilcontact]

Rogue called back the moment she heard the message. She set down the kitten, her fingers trembling as she punched Nicky's number in.

She waited patiently for him to pick up. And if he didn't... Hell, she'd maybe consider flying to London and finding him.

[nickytheprick]

He picked up the phone, shaking his head a little. "Please be Rogue," he said into the mouthpiece as he brought it to his ear.

[justalilcontact]

"I'll be anyone you want me to be, sugar, but that particular request is easy." She sucked in a breath. "Tell me everythin'."

[nickytheprick]

"Be the best friend who talks some fucking sense into me?" he said quietly.

He let out a long slow sigh. "She left, Rogue. Everything was fine, and then she left. For no reason I can fathom... It just doesn't make SENSE, Roguey. She scrawled a two word note and took off? We just got married... she's pregnant... Why would she do this?"

He dashed the tears that were falling away. This wasn't the time to cry. This was the time to figure out what the FUCK had happened to his marriage. If anyone could keep him sane and focused on the matter at hand, it was Rogue.

[justalilcontact]

She kept quiet, listening closely. She couldn't understand it either, but she figured Nicky didn't really need to hear that right now. She'd been keeping quiet on her end since he got married, leaving the newlyweds time to themselves, but when she had spoken to him he'd been happy beyond measure. The last time was when he'd told her Anne was pregnant.

In the end though, she blew out a breath and just went with what she did know. "It doesn't make sense, but I know she loved you a lot, Nicky. If she felt there was a reason to make her leave she wouldn't have done it without a lot of thought. The note seems a bit..." she wanted to say 'cold', but again, not what he needed, "brief. I just... are you sure there was nothin'? She didn't start actin' strange, or talkin' about somethin' that was happenin' with her?"

[nickytheprick]

"We had one fight. And things were fine again... It was just a matter of working through it." Another huge sigh. "Stupid me not understanding what she was really saying. You know me, I'm a twat from word one."

He tried not to cry anymore. Not that Rogue would mind, but HE minded.

"I wish there was SOMETHING," he said, "something I could point to and say 'that's where it was going wrong' but Rogue? There is NOTHING."

[justalilcontact]

"Usually is that way. I mean, me and John have fights but we get through them. We had a fight in the closet once." She cringed, thinking he really didn't need to hear about another couple fighting. "What do you think she was sayin'? I mean... Anne just kinda strikes me as the type to say what she means. Not be all... cryptic."

No, Rogue would never mind, but she respected the fact that he probably minded. She wouldn't ever think any worse of him if he did break down.

"I believe you, Nicky. I wish I had somethin' to say that could make it all better for you."

[nickytheprick]

"I know, that's what I mean, it wasn't anything crazy. We fought, we worked it out, we got over it, we moved on." He paused. "You fought in a CLOSET? Oh you know I'm gonna have to hear that one later." He laughed, and even he was surprised how bitter it sounded. "I think she was saying goodbye. I mean, how much can you read into Goodbye Nicky that isn't just simply that?"

He actually cracked a smile. "Honey, you help just by being on the other end of the phone. You know that."

[justalilcontact]

"Yep, our walk in closet in the bedroom. And you know I'll tell you anythin' if you ask. So just remind me when you're ready and I'll tell you all about it." She didn't like hearing the bitterness in his tone, but she wasn't about to stop him from expressing it. Better out than in. "Depends on the context, I guess. And if it was more than a piece of paper, it would depend in the inflection, tone, all those fun non-verbal cues."

She smiled too, moving to sit somewhere comfortable and scooped her kitten back up. "There might be times when I don't. Then I might have to take to flying over there and be there for you in person."

[nickytheprick]

He laughed just a little. "it just gets better and better," he teased, but it was half-hearted at best. "Yeah, this one's got no tone. It's just got a pretty firm press on the letters."

He moved to the wall, sliding down it to sit on the floor. He didn't want to be on the couch. Not where they'd first... not where he'd fallen for her completely. Fuck it. If she didn't come back soon, he'd burn the fucking thing.

"No, you always help, little sweetheart. Always. But I'd never object to you flying over. You know that. Real hugs from my Rogue friend? That helps amazingly."

[justalilcontact]

She chewed her lip, and let out a small sigh. She didn't like knowing Nicky was hurting. Even worse that she couldn't give him any answers. "I'm sorry, Nicholas. And I know it ain't what you wanna hear. I'll try and make it the last time I say those words. I wish I could give you an explanation that would just get it to make sense. There ain't anythin' about this that makes sense."

"Do you want me there? John doesn't get why I drop everythin' for my friends, but I do, and I definitely will for you. If you need me there, just say the word, Nicholas."

[nickytheprick]

"It's okay, Rogue. I didn't expect anyone to have answers. It's just... you know me. I get upset, I do stupid shit and I didn't want to do that this time. I mean, beyond the drinking, because that's been done already." He almost smiled. "You can say you're sorry as many times as it comes up, babe. It's not offending me any."

He spoke next without really thinking. "I want you here." And then his brain caught up. "But you don't have to come. I'll be okay sweetheart."

[justalilcontact]

"Just remember to drink water, and eat somethin' occasionally," she gently reminded him. "Told you before I don't wanna lose you."

"I want me there, too," she agreed. "So I tell you what, sugar, if you still want me there in a week, or so... I'll come. For as long as you need me."

"And I know you will... at least call me, okay? Just let me know you really are okay."

[nickytheprick]

He nodded, then remembered they were on the phone. "I'll remember, I promise. I'd get up right now and get water, but I'm kind of comfortable on the floor." Oddly? True. "You're not going to lose me. Like I could die without understanding why my pregnant wife would take off?" Upset, drunk, depressed? Those he could do. And probably would.

"That sounds good," he said softly. What had he done to deserve a friend like her? "Thank you. Really. I don't know what I'd do without you, Made of Awesome Bestest Friend in the Entire Universe."

"I will, I promise. I'll call. I'll e-mail too. I'll send pictures. I'll do many things so you know I'm okay. I love you, Rogue." Silent tears this time, but tears just the same. However, these were grateful ones, and he smiled.

[justalilcontact]

"Well, that's the other thing. I know you gotta sort this through and do the whole upset and drunk thing, but at least do it in comfort. I hope you understand why soon, Nicky. This really isn't fair."

She laughed a little. "I don't know what you'd do without me either, or me without you. You are also my Made of Awesomest Bestest Friend in the Entire Universe." And the truth was, he'd done nothing to deserve a friend like her other than be himself.

"Good, 'cause otherwise I'd go crazy wonderin' if you were okay. And I love you too, Nicky. Just get through it all one day at a time. And if it gets too hard, you know where I am." She sniffed, trying not to cry herself.