for lack of anything else to do...
hello.
i'm sitting in blake's room extremely bummed out and instead of continueing to be pathetic and sad to blake with this i've turned to livejournal.
i hate hate hate my spanish class. actually i don't mind the hour and fifteen minutes 2 days a week, but i hate the expectation the university of alabama has for me to learn,understand,and grasp spanish via the internet. me and most of the class haven't had spanish all summer, and they want us to do this course compass thing that is literally 500 questions/sentences/essays long, like we're fresh from 102/103. i've been sitting in front of blake's computer (mine is currently not working-sad) since like 8:30 and i haven't even come close to finishing it. its now 12 midnight and i've given up. its the most frustrating thing. it has actually made me cry tonight. i know that i am somehow capable of learning what is right now basically giberish, but i honestly don't know if i want to. i know how great it is to be bilingual in this day in age, but i honestly don't know if i'm going to get it. right now, it makes me feel really bad about myself, like i'm some kind of idiot that has to quit because i can't hack it. when it comes right down to it though, i don't really have a choice. i have to minor in spanish. if i ever want to be invited to christmas dinner at my mom's house- i must minor in espanol. i hate that i'm letting one class get to me like this. and i hate that i have to work sooo much harder toward my minor than i do my major. and i hate that this one thing can make me feel so freaking lousy. :`(
so to those of you who read this thanks for "listening" and i'm done for now. goodnight.
i'm sitting in blake's room extremely bummed out and instead of continueing to be pathetic and sad to blake with this i've turned to livejournal.
i hate hate hate my spanish class. actually i don't mind the hour and fifteen minutes 2 days a week, but i hate the expectation the university of alabama has for me to learn,understand,and grasp spanish via the internet. me and most of the class haven't had spanish all summer, and they want us to do this course compass thing that is literally 500 questions/sentences/essays long, like we're fresh from 102/103. i've been sitting in front of blake's computer (mine is currently not working-sad) since like 8:30 and i haven't even come close to finishing it. its now 12 midnight and i've given up. its the most frustrating thing. it has actually made me cry tonight. i know that i am somehow capable of learning what is right now basically giberish, but i honestly don't know if i want to. i know how great it is to be bilingual in this day in age, but i honestly don't know if i'm going to get it. right now, it makes me feel really bad about myself, like i'm some kind of idiot that has to quit because i can't hack it. when it comes right down to it though, i don't really have a choice. i have to minor in spanish. if i ever want to be invited to christmas dinner at my mom's house- i must minor in espanol. i hate that i'm letting one class get to me like this. and i hate that i have to work sooo much harder toward my minor than i do my major. and i hate that this one thing can make me feel so freaking lousy. :`(
so to those of you who read this thanks for "listening" and i'm done for now. goodnight.