Hurt...
I know I'm irrational, but it's just so hard to shake this feeling...
This feeling that I could've been better - I could've been enough and then some. That I could've been strong enough, smart enough, funny enough, caring enough, loving enough, wonderful enough. That if I had been enough and then some he wouldn't have left.
Of course, I know that isn't true. The heart want what it wants and I can't change that no matter how amazing I can try to be. I see him doing this too and I wonder why we can't just move out of this vicious cycle. Because in here no one gets what they want - no one is as happy as they could be. When will we let go and move on? It feels like a game of chicken, like if I wait long enough he will give up and I can have what I want...but that's another one of the falsehoods.
But are we so crazy to believe that we could be happy? That time wont fix everything? But here...we can't both get what we want.
I should let go because my masochistic behavior is only hurting me every day. But still...
Jamie is over and Jamie is gone
Jamie's decided it's time to move on
Jamie has new dreams he's building upon
And I'm still hurting
Jamie arrived at the end of the line
Jamie's convinced that the problems are mine
Jamie is probably feeling just fine
And I'm still hurting
What about lies, Jamie?
What about things
That you swore to be true
What about you, Jamie
What about you
Jamie is sure something wonderful died
Jamie decides it's his right to decide
Jamie's got secrets he doesn't confide
And I'm still hurting
Go and hide and run away
Run away, run and find something better
Go and ride the sun away
Run away like it's simple
Like it's right...
Give me a day, Jamie
Bring back the lies
Hang them back on the wall
Maybe I'd see
How you could be
So certain that we
Had no chance at all
Jamie is over and where can I turn?
Covered with scars I did everything to earn
Maybe there's somewhere a lesson to learn
But that wouldn't change the fact
That wouldn't speed the time
Once the foundation's cracked
And I'm
Still Hurting
This feeling that I could've been better - I could've been enough and then some. That I could've been strong enough, smart enough, funny enough, caring enough, loving enough, wonderful enough. That if I had been enough and then some he wouldn't have left.
Of course, I know that isn't true. The heart want what it wants and I can't change that no matter how amazing I can try to be. I see him doing this too and I wonder why we can't just move out of this vicious cycle. Because in here no one gets what they want - no one is as happy as they could be. When will we let go and move on? It feels like a game of chicken, like if I wait long enough he will give up and I can have what I want...but that's another one of the falsehoods.
But are we so crazy to believe that we could be happy? That time wont fix everything? But here...we can't both get what we want.
I should let go because my masochistic behavior is only hurting me every day. But still...
Jamie is over and Jamie is gone
Jamie's decided it's time to move on
Jamie has new dreams he's building upon
And I'm still hurting
Jamie arrived at the end of the line
Jamie's convinced that the problems are mine
Jamie is probably feeling just fine
And I'm still hurting
What about lies, Jamie?
What about things
That you swore to be true
What about you, Jamie
What about you
Jamie is sure something wonderful died
Jamie decides it's his right to decide
Jamie's got secrets he doesn't confide
And I'm still hurting
Go and hide and run away
Run away, run and find something better
Go and ride the sun away
Run away like it's simple
Like it's right...
Give me a day, Jamie
Bring back the lies
Hang them back on the wall
Maybe I'd see
How you could be
So certain that we
Had no chance at all
Jamie is over and where can I turn?
Covered with scars I did everything to earn
Maybe there's somewhere a lesson to learn
But that wouldn't change the fact
That wouldn't speed the time
Once the foundation's cracked
And I'm
Still Hurting