on or off the road... idc
I know why I feel this way but I can't tell you what the feeling is. I feel like a piece of me is missing or something that I really care about has died. Its really over this time. Its seriously like you've died & there's nothing I can do to bring you back. Somethings not right with me. I feel like a pathetic piece of shit. I feel selfish for the feelings I have. I don't deserve them. How is it possible to care about someone so much that doesn't want anything to do with you? I seriously sleep 80%-90% of my day away cause I don't want anything to do with life. That 10%-20% I'm awake I'm probably drunk or thinking about how much I hate being alive. I have a feeling that I'm gonna be one of those dumb fucks that selfishly off themselves in a drunken stupor. What do I have to live for anyways?