last post of 2012? a year devoid of posts!
haha, yes severe lack of posting! been voicing my opinions a bit more on twitters an facebooks of this world so... i need to sort my life out and get back posting on here!!
hey journal, and the complete lack of people that read this now actually makes this a more accessible tool for me again. last post was nearly 3 months ago i believe?
so yea, nicholas life as it is. after breaking up with niomi i've actually stuck to that pretty damn well, avoided seeing her altough still have a few of her things here, which is not the best way to be but in fairness neithers going behind another persons back. so not losing too much sleep over that! still in contact, she still insists she likes me but pictures of her popping up on facebook meze page with guys its like yea... your a tool. lol. so despite feeling a tad lonely, its not even debatable reopening that door lol
work wise things are okay, staff which i could barely hold a conversation with before i actually feel comfortable around now for the most part bar a minor exception or two. Theres so many two faced people there but, i can deal with it. Work tonight in particular was in my zone, me the one everyone has to look up to as i tell them how to mix this cash that do this that. basically ran the bar my way and made the authority figures listen to my way. 2 of my fav things. 3rd being a nice ickle sing along to the old 80s classics haha. always makes me happy and now i guess nostalgic.
work wise also good in the sense that in the coming weeks in january, the main guy is leaving and another girl not long after that so my hours will be shooting up considerably according to people. which in run to NY is a good thing! New york is still on and strong. ive paid for my flight (still need to sort out passport etc) an have money for my accomodation! and also yea, wrestlemania ticket is mine just also needs paying for an have the money for that too. not inherited moneys that look really nice in my bank, but money ive saved from working my ass off. an its so good after literally years of rants on here stemming from where ive been bored/had nothing better to do than overthink everything that i can be on here on the verge of i hope the greatest holiday of my life, or at least joint with the hawaii one with my dad.
going with me is ryan, of course the guy i knew wouldnt let me down, donna the live for the moment queen, alexa whos prob trying to win us ringside seats (and prob win, shes that lucky with competitions!) and ben, the new target of terris desires! just come off the phone to her discussing a few things... fingers are crossed for both that it works out well whatever does happen. boxing day shall be interesting with regards to that me thinks!
ian is going to be a dad! dunno if i posted it or not. hes not due to meet his son till after new york i think, really hope i can be there for it, hes a bro to me and it will be special to me to be part of that in some way. hope things work out there too.
is a growing up time... but yet i still havent found my niche my place. im still, luckily and happily, talking to jaycie and we've met a large number of times in the last few months, no ones come to visit me the number of times she has not even family, so its special to me and i hope i get to see her again before christmas/new years but me her both busy people, so not easy. hopefully things can fall into place again.
hope. its a word recurring in this post. sometimes you have just to keep fingers crossed an hope things fall into place the way you want them too. it doesnt matter how hard you work how much you try. sometimes things can fall into your lap. sometimes they just wont work out the way you want them too. think at this stage of my life i've dealt with it a lot better but ive also come to realisation that im still growing up and lifes always got lessons you can learn from.
all this has come from just being a lot quiter an paying a lot more attention. maybe a closed book but theres a lot less blank pages.
thanks for reading whoever does? would be nice if i could see who did one day ! will attempt to update once more this year but if not ... merry christmas and a happy new year. 2013... lucky for some ? :) x
hey journal, and the complete lack of people that read this now actually makes this a more accessible tool for me again. last post was nearly 3 months ago i believe?
so yea, nicholas life as it is. after breaking up with niomi i've actually stuck to that pretty damn well, avoided seeing her altough still have a few of her things here, which is not the best way to be but in fairness neithers going behind another persons back. so not losing too much sleep over that! still in contact, she still insists she likes me but pictures of her popping up on facebook meze page with guys its like yea... your a tool. lol. so despite feeling a tad lonely, its not even debatable reopening that door lol
work wise things are okay, staff which i could barely hold a conversation with before i actually feel comfortable around now for the most part bar a minor exception or two. Theres so many two faced people there but, i can deal with it. Work tonight in particular was in my zone, me the one everyone has to look up to as i tell them how to mix this cash that do this that. basically ran the bar my way and made the authority figures listen to my way. 2 of my fav things. 3rd being a nice ickle sing along to the old 80s classics haha. always makes me happy and now i guess nostalgic.
work wise also good in the sense that in the coming weeks in january, the main guy is leaving and another girl not long after that so my hours will be shooting up considerably according to people. which in run to NY is a good thing! New york is still on and strong. ive paid for my flight (still need to sort out passport etc) an have money for my accomodation! and also yea, wrestlemania ticket is mine just also needs paying for an have the money for that too. not inherited moneys that look really nice in my bank, but money ive saved from working my ass off. an its so good after literally years of rants on here stemming from where ive been bored/had nothing better to do than overthink everything that i can be on here on the verge of i hope the greatest holiday of my life, or at least joint with the hawaii one with my dad.
going with me is ryan, of course the guy i knew wouldnt let me down, donna the live for the moment queen, alexa whos prob trying to win us ringside seats (and prob win, shes that lucky with competitions!) and ben, the new target of terris desires! just come off the phone to her discussing a few things... fingers are crossed for both that it works out well whatever does happen. boxing day shall be interesting with regards to that me thinks!
ian is going to be a dad! dunno if i posted it or not. hes not due to meet his son till after new york i think, really hope i can be there for it, hes a bro to me and it will be special to me to be part of that in some way. hope things work out there too.
is a growing up time... but yet i still havent found my niche my place. im still, luckily and happily, talking to jaycie and we've met a large number of times in the last few months, no ones come to visit me the number of times she has not even family, so its special to me and i hope i get to see her again before christmas/new years but me her both busy people, so not easy. hopefully things can fall into place again.
hope. its a word recurring in this post. sometimes you have just to keep fingers crossed an hope things fall into place the way you want them too. it doesnt matter how hard you work how much you try. sometimes things can fall into your lap. sometimes they just wont work out the way you want them too. think at this stage of my life i've dealt with it a lot better but ive also come to realisation that im still growing up and lifes always got lessons you can learn from.
all this has come from just being a lot quiter an paying a lot more attention. maybe a closed book but theres a lot less blank pages.
thanks for reading whoever does? would be nice if i could see who did one day ! will attempt to update once more this year but if not ... merry christmas and a happy new year. 2013... lucky for some ? :) x