Saturdays suck
Is it wrong to think that a day that you dont have to work is boreing? Well thats what I think when im off of work. I woke up today and talked to jessica, she said she missed me and she wanted to see me. Jessica said it like she was horny or something, or really really desperate to be with someone. Well anyways I said ok I can come out and pick you up right now (this was around 2pm) but she said she had to go out (she really had to sleep, which is ok because she didnt get much sleep the night before) So i said ok how about 8, jessica said that will be good and then I said well what do you want to do and jesica didnt respond. So i figured I would just bring her back to my place until we figured something out. Well anyways 8 came along and jessica wasnt at the school, (i dont blame her there was something wrong with her servie at the restaurant she was at) but she wasnt there so i caled her and she said well what do you wanna do nick? I said we can go back to my place. Right away jess said I dont want to just sit at your place so I said ok well what do you wanna do? After that it got into a big argument and she told me to just forget about it and to go back home, and then her phone died. Well anyways we got into a fight and i yelled at her which i no now i shouldnt have done. I just got so angry that i drove all the way out to west hartford to be able to see her and be with her and she just told me to go home. I felt so bad, my hopes were so far up. Ithought i would be able to see her but then she told me to forget about it. I was so pissed, she brought my hopes up then made them crash into the ground. I just said I was sorry to her a few min ago and she said it was alright, but i hope it REALLY is alright. I just want her to no i love her. I just want her to no Ill always be the one who cared the most about her. It would be so much better if I were drunk right now because then i could just forget about it all. Atleast for a few minuetes. But i dont think I want to forget about her for a few minuetes. I just cant let go of her, and i dont want to. If the time come i will fight for her.