Do boys just not want me to have a boyfriend?

[nicksislds]

Soooooooooooooo everything comes up when I decide I like a boy. I think it's Satan's tactics. lol I saw Nate yesterday at church and I said hello to him while feeling nothing. I was so proud of myself. :) Yay me. I think the Bishop's son may like me because he was chasing after me all day in church. Suprise suprise... he has red hair. ha ha Maybe it's because I have red in my hair? I don't know. Jordan wrote me this note that said apparently he's married... real cool. I don't care that he's married. He's a drop out, a year younger then me, and nasty both mentally and physically. Too bad I don't care that he messed up his life.

ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL day... I kid you not... ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL day at church yesterday the topic of marriage was brought up. Ummmmmmmm apparently you are never ready for marriage and we all need to do it right away. Uhhhhhhh yeah? Oh and date steadily as well. Oh how I wish Matt was there yesterday. He he he.

I'm so excited for the dance on Friday. :) I just want to be with him so bad and it is at least going to happen on Friday evening. EXCITING!

**NICKS**