What the hell is going on?
Something is seriously wrong with me. I don't know if it's my job or what's triggering my constant bitchy-ness. I hate it! I can have a good few days and out of nowhere I turn into super bitch! Here I am having my doubts again. (read a few posts back and you'll understand). Why do I need this constant reassurance that people really do care? I KNOW my friends and family love me so why do I doubt it all the time? I guess I'm just a person who needs to frequently be reminded that people do love me. *Oh gosh, this sounds like a suicide note, sorry! I'm not crazy like that, I'm just venting* I had a blast yesterday horsing around in the pool with Mandi and then last night us girls played "a game". I mean honestly, I haven't laughed that hard in I don't know how long. It was so much fun! Then today, I wake up in the pissiest (I don't know how to spell that or if it's even a word!) mood. I can't shake it either. I thought it was from being tired so I came home and took like a 2 hour nap and the feeling is still there. I was evil to everyone I came in contact with today and I wasn't trying to be mean so now I feel awful and am wondering if I hurt anyone's feelings. I really think I need to change, but I've been this way for so long. I know no one believes this because I try to act like things don't bother me, but I take just about EVERYTHING to heart. I get my feelings hurt so easily but I'd never admit it! IT DOES bother me that I bust my butt to show people I care about them and no one ever makes an attempt to remind me that they love me for who I am. You all will never know what that would do for me. I thrive off of knowing someone is thinking of me! I don't want it ALL the time, but sometimes would be super nice! Some of you who read this may already do this for me, but it isn't likely. Not many people do...but if you think about it, if you are one of my good friends, I let you know I love and care about you, that's just who I am. I'm pretty sure all who read this do care about me, sometimes I just need that reassurance, ya know!Think you could help a sista out? Thanks! Lots of Love!