Loss of innocence, Loss of Love....
Everyone has some hurt deep inside that has changed them into the person they are today. What was that instance? Can you tell me why you're like you are? Cause i traced my jadedness back to the beginning and it's alot deeper than i thought.
Hearing about such a strong love for god makes me think about the days when god was influential on my life. Now that's all but gone leaving nothing but some values and a view on life that puts me at odds with everyone.
Last nite was awful...actually went suicidal and had i not been on the verge of throwing up i prolly might have tried. My life is going nowhere and i need to start accepting the fact that i screwed up large in everything. With nothin goin for me i realized last nite the looks i see that i never noticed...i feel like i'm in a prison. I'm locked up with nowhere to go...and even if i break out i only have one narrow escape route that leads into a dead end. I'm claustraphobic by the way...
Hopin Jimmy brings me pleasure tomorrow...and a helpful visitor may help me too...
Hearing about such a strong love for god makes me think about the days when god was influential on my life. Now that's all but gone leaving nothing but some values and a view on life that puts me at odds with everyone.
Last nite was awful...actually went suicidal and had i not been on the verge of throwing up i prolly might have tried. My life is going nowhere and i need to start accepting the fact that i screwed up large in everything. With nothin goin for me i realized last nite the looks i see that i never noticed...i feel like i'm in a prison. I'm locked up with nowhere to go...and even if i break out i only have one narrow escape route that leads into a dead end. I'm claustraphobic by the way...
Hopin Jimmy brings me pleasure tomorrow...and a helpful visitor may help me too...