Hm. Falling from cloud nine
So I realize that when I write in this, my subject is always sad and depressing. I apologize to those who read this. SO today I will write about a sad thing and a happy thing. Happy thing first :)
The past three weeks have been so good for me. The first two weeks I spent at dance boot camp. It was absolutely fabulous, extremely challenging but fabulous. During those two weeks I was exhausted and it was awesome. I didn't to think about things that made me anxious because I was just too tired. I made some friends who are awesome and I met a cute boy who was in my class. Although I was sad dance was over, the following week was just as awesome. It was very relaxing and fun. I would sit around all day then go to rehearsal in the evenings then go out with my friends after rehearsals. It was great, especially since rehearsals started becoming less dull and boring and more exciting and fulfilling. I wasn't anxious at about having nothing to do all day, which usually made me go crazy. This was great.
But today I was talking to my friend who told me about a hot gay kid who lives in my town so I freinded him on facebook. I thought he was super hot and I totally wanted him. I later realized that he was closet cases exboyfriend... AWESOME. I also later realized that he was way out of my league and a hotter, more jockey version of me. GREAT. This totally made me feel like absolute shit. Not only that, but I have been thinking about closet case every night before I go to bed for the past month. It hasn't been bothering me because I was so content with my life, but now it is keeping me up for hours. Now I just feel like shit about my apearence and my personality. Whatever.
FML.
The past three weeks have been so good for me. The first two weeks I spent at dance boot camp. It was absolutely fabulous, extremely challenging but fabulous. During those two weeks I was exhausted and it was awesome. I didn't to think about things that made me anxious because I was just too tired. I made some friends who are awesome and I met a cute boy who was in my class. Although I was sad dance was over, the following week was just as awesome. It was very relaxing and fun. I would sit around all day then go to rehearsal in the evenings then go out with my friends after rehearsals. It was great, especially since rehearsals started becoming less dull and boring and more exciting and fulfilling. I wasn't anxious at about having nothing to do all day, which usually made me go crazy. This was great.
But today I was talking to my friend who told me about a hot gay kid who lives in my town so I freinded him on facebook. I thought he was super hot and I totally wanted him. I later realized that he was closet cases exboyfriend... AWESOME. I also later realized that he was way out of my league and a hotter, more jockey version of me. GREAT. This totally made me feel like absolute shit. Not only that, but I have been thinking about closet case every night before I go to bed for the past month. It hasn't been bothering me because I was so content with my life, but now it is keeping me up for hours. Now I just feel like shit about my apearence and my personality. Whatever.
FML.