Mourning After :(
It is the second day, first morning, with live journal. It is also the first morning being single! I am really anxious about it at the moment. You know, having those feelings of second guessing my decisions in the past few days. My thoughts at the moment are:
- Did I really make the right decision?
- I lost something I really enjoyed
- I was asking for too much, I was greedy
- I miss the shit out of him
- We had something good
These thoughts have been RACING through my head and it is a problem. I have an anxiety issue so this morning is not fun AT ALL. BUT while having these thoughts I just need to remind myself the following things:
- He never could hang out with me
- We only had time for sexual things, leaving me feeling like a slut
- I was not apart of his life
- When we were apart, I felt more anxious than I do now
- I can find someone who can make time for me and really care about me ***
- Loss will make you stronger
- He's a closet case. Maybe it could work out in the future but right now he's in the closet and I'm not.
etc. etc. etc.
Thankfully my sister and mother (and some friends) are taking care of me. Otherwise I would be dying. It's okay I will slowly but surely get over this.
Lesson of the morning: When breaking up with someone, especially one that you care about a lot, make sure you have something to do to keep you busy for the next couple days (especially mornings). If you don't, you end up sitting alone feeling shitty.
- Did I really make the right decision?
- I lost something I really enjoyed
- I was asking for too much, I was greedy
- I miss the shit out of him
- We had something good
These thoughts have been RACING through my head and it is a problem. I have an anxiety issue so this morning is not fun AT ALL. BUT while having these thoughts I just need to remind myself the following things:
- He never could hang out with me
- We only had time for sexual things, leaving me feeling like a slut
- I was not apart of his life
- When we were apart, I felt more anxious than I do now
- I can find someone who can make time for me and really care about me ***
- Loss will make you stronger
- He's a closet case. Maybe it could work out in the future but right now he's in the closet and I'm not.
etc. etc. etc.
Thankfully my sister and mother (and some friends) are taking care of me. Otherwise I would be dying. It's okay I will slowly but surely get over this.
Lesson of the morning: When breaking up with someone, especially one that you care about a lot, make sure you have something to do to keep you busy for the next couple days (especially mornings). If you don't, you end up sitting alone feeling shitty.