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Happy Easter, I hope it was good for everyone. I don't really have much to say at all right now, so this is pretty pointless. I'll take a leaf out of Jemma's book. Ask me questions, I'll answer them.
Maya
I Love You Man Friday, y/n?
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Selena broke up with me.
I was actually really...surprised. I mean, the week after I had initially told her about the stupid kiss I thought that it was all over. And then she started saying good things and getting more and more comfortable talking to me, but she still needed time. And so like, I gave it to her. Maybe I gave her too much, but she freaked out on me and dumped me and I don't even know what the fuck now. First I wasn't giving her enough space to make a decision, and now I gave her too much. I'm pretty sure her friends got under her skin, but I don't care. Selena ended it, and as weird as it seems to not be with her anymore, it's almost a relief. And I know that sounds really bad and maybe it isn't right and this is just me in denial and coping or some shit, but a big part of me is glad to be without a girlfriend right now. Joe and Kevin have both been ridiculously good support since Selena dumped me, and Joe especially has been drilling stuff in my head and you know what? He's fucking right. And I guess a part of me always realized this, but an even bigger part loved Selena enough to try and get past all the negative and work through it.
But she's just so dramatic, and I don't need that in my life. Especially not right now. And it's not obvious dramatics. It's little things that she turns into big things, and I'm always blamed. And then she turns it around and whines about her shouldering all the blame for everything and I'm just like...lol really? Because this wasn't you AT ALL. The slow dancing in a burning room thing, not you. The stupid New Years Eve shit, that wasn't her at all. She overanalyzes fucking everything and it was just so fucking complicated. I'm fucking sixteen years old. I'm in a fucking band. I'm known all around the fucking world. I'm Nick Jonas. I am in no place to have a girlfriend tying me down right now. Joe is right. I could have any girl I want, I can have a god damn pick, and I can get someone less complicated and just all around more chill then Selena. I don't need somebody like her right now. It took me until after I "cheated" (which, if you think about it, is such a fucking loose way to say it. It was absolutely nothing, just Selena blowing things out of proportion, again) to realize it. I'm hoping that I won't have such a hard time getting over Selena like I did last time, and I really think that it's a big possibility that it's just going to get easier. She can do what she wants, I can do what I want. Maybe this was a good thing. Yeah, I'll miss her. That much is obvious. But I'll be damned if I can't replace her completely.
Maya
I Love You Man Friday, y/n?
Private
Selena broke up with me.
I was actually really...surprised. I mean, the week after I had initially told her about the stupid kiss I thought that it was all over. And then she started saying good things and getting more and more comfortable talking to me, but she still needed time. And so like, I gave it to her. Maybe I gave her too much, but she freaked out on me and dumped me and I don't even know what the fuck now. First I wasn't giving her enough space to make a decision, and now I gave her too much. I'm pretty sure her friends got under her skin, but I don't care. Selena ended it, and as weird as it seems to not be with her anymore, it's almost a relief. And I know that sounds really bad and maybe it isn't right and this is just me in denial and coping or some shit, but a big part of me is glad to be without a girlfriend right now. Joe and Kevin have both been ridiculously good support since Selena dumped me, and Joe especially has been drilling stuff in my head and you know what? He's fucking right. And I guess a part of me always realized this, but an even bigger part loved Selena enough to try and get past all the negative and work through it.
But she's just so dramatic, and I don't need that in my life. Especially not right now. And it's not obvious dramatics. It's little things that she turns into big things, and I'm always blamed. And then she turns it around and whines about her shouldering all the blame for everything and I'm just like...lol really? Because this wasn't you AT ALL. The slow dancing in a burning room thing, not you. The stupid New Years Eve shit, that wasn't her at all. She overanalyzes fucking everything and it was just so fucking complicated. I'm fucking sixteen years old. I'm in a fucking band. I'm known all around the fucking world. I'm Nick Jonas. I am in no place to have a girlfriend tying me down right now. Joe is right. I could have any girl I want, I can have a god damn pick, and I can get someone less complicated and just all around more chill then Selena. I don't need somebody like her right now. It took me until after I "cheated" (which, if you think about it, is such a fucking loose way to say it. It was absolutely nothing, just Selena blowing things out of proportion, again) to realize it. I'm hoping that I won't have such a hard time getting over Selena like I did last time, and I really think that it's a big possibility that it's just going to get easier. She can do what she wants, I can do what I want. Maybe this was a good thing. Yeah, I'll miss her. That much is obvious. But I'll be damned if I can't replace her completely.