Life is... life, lately.
So, since Matt has left things have just been so bland. I miss him terribly but there is nothing in this world that I can do to actually be with him. Before he left, I thought that I wouldn't be able to handle it, but I've realized that it has only made us stronger. Don't get me wrong, this is the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life and it will only get harder as the time passes that I can't be with him.
I talk to him at least once a day, if not more. But usually once is the right number. The webcam has saved my life, now even though he is so far, I can still see his wonderful face and hear his voice along with it. It's just like we're with each other, but we aren't. It isn't the same but it's close enough for now.
We've been talking a lot about the future with each other, and I think I like it. I don't want to plan anything just in case anything happens between us, which I have high doubt of, but it's always good to play it safe. His mom has met this man and is completely head over heels for him. she has mentioned marrying him and moving in with him in Ohio, where he lives. She said that she would give us the house and we could live there. So, when Matt comes home for good around April, we may have our own house.
We have these crazy ideas about what we're gonna do in the future. If he comes home, he will play for UMD again and I will live with him, if he gets a scholarship to a college out of state, gets drafted to the OHL or even the NHL, I'll be right there with him. There is no way I will put myself, or him through this again. I know this is supposed to happen for a reason and I know that only good can come out of it for the both of us. In a year or so, I could be living in a completely different place with the one I love and starting a new life.
He has told me plenty of times he is doing this for us, doing this so we can have a better life, and so we can experience things together. It makes me so happy to hear that is in doing this for us, and not just him. The fact that he is including me in on this is the best feeling in the world.
Through our whole, almost two years together, he has never really mentioned anything about the future. Now, we talk about living together, maybe having babies in a few, maybe more than a few, years together. Possibly having a ceremony celebrating our love for each other, which involves a priest and stuff. Lol. You know what I'm talking about. It's just nits to even have these thoughts in my head, but I like it. It feels right. It feels good.
So, I'm going up to Toronto for the first weekend in October to see him!! I get to have sex again too!! Haha. I am just so looking forward to being able to see him and feel him and kiss him and hug him all over. I've been waiting too long for this and it needs to come as soon as possible. I don't even know how I'm gonna handle myself when I can actually see his face in person. I'm gonna sneak into his hotel room and lay with him illegally, I just hope I don't get caught.
Oh, and school, it sucks. All my teachers are jokes. Wayne County is the worst school ever.
I talk to him at least once a day, if not more. But usually once is the right number. The webcam has saved my life, now even though he is so far, I can still see his wonderful face and hear his voice along with it. It's just like we're with each other, but we aren't. It isn't the same but it's close enough for now.
We've been talking a lot about the future with each other, and I think I like it. I don't want to plan anything just in case anything happens between us, which I have high doubt of, but it's always good to play it safe. His mom has met this man and is completely head over heels for him. she has mentioned marrying him and moving in with him in Ohio, where he lives. She said that she would give us the house and we could live there. So, when Matt comes home for good around April, we may have our own house.
We have these crazy ideas about what we're gonna do in the future. If he comes home, he will play for UMD again and I will live with him, if he gets a scholarship to a college out of state, gets drafted to the OHL or even the NHL, I'll be right there with him. There is no way I will put myself, or him through this again. I know this is supposed to happen for a reason and I know that only good can come out of it for the both of us. In a year or so, I could be living in a completely different place with the one I love and starting a new life.
He has told me plenty of times he is doing this for us, doing this so we can have a better life, and so we can experience things together. It makes me so happy to hear that is in doing this for us, and not just him. The fact that he is including me in on this is the best feeling in the world.
Through our whole, almost two years together, he has never really mentioned anything about the future. Now, we talk about living together, maybe having babies in a few, maybe more than a few, years together. Possibly having a ceremony celebrating our love for each other, which involves a priest and stuff. Lol. You know what I'm talking about. It's just nits to even have these thoughts in my head, but I like it. It feels right. It feels good.
So, I'm going up to Toronto for the first weekend in October to see him!! I get to have sex again too!! Haha. I am just so looking forward to being able to see him and feel him and kiss him and hug him all over. I've been waiting too long for this and it needs to come as soon as possible. I don't even know how I'm gonna handle myself when I can actually see his face in person. I'm gonna sneak into his hotel room and lay with him illegally, I just hope I don't get caught.
Oh, and school, it sucks. All my teachers are jokes. Wayne County is the worst school ever.