I'm pissed.....fuming actually....

[nickiebaby]

The actual act that started this whole damn thing isn't that big of a deal. I want to make that perfectly clear......It's not about the weed at all. Sure, I'm minorly tiffed over it, but I wouldn't have really cared if he would/could actually understand why it kinda bothered me, but he doesn't seem to be listening to me about it, opting rather to try and convince me that I have no reason to be upset. Taking a step back from this, I realize that I shouldn't really care, but that still doesn't change the fact that I do care, the fact that how I feel about it seems so trivial and petty. I was ten seconds away from letting the whole thing drop cause I could tell that I'd gotten on his bad side, but then he brought up something that I never expected him to.....all the money he spent when it was a regular habit. Here's the thing about that. When I had money, I put in. Even if I needed to hold on to that money for one reason or another, I'd still put in cause I did feel bad about the sheer amount of cash that I smoked away from Thomas and Richard. I smoked with him cause he asked me to, cause he didn't like to do it alone and cause I really, truly, believed that he was ok with it. Obviously I was wrong considering that it's being brought up and thrown in my face now. I despise people that use their "friends," mainly because I used to let people do that me all the time, so the simple fact that I'm being accused of that really pisses me off.
Well Thomas, I used to be able to say that I'd never been even remotely mad at you for anything. I can't do that anymore, and if I'd known that it was an issue with you, if you had said that it bothered you, I would have just kept you company, watched you smoke your weed.